I feel HAPPY

We're friends again.

I AM HAPPY =)))

no more quarel due to small things kay?

because it hurts.

I appreciate and heart you, always...

it is all about sport test =X

GYM makes my life suffering because I have to practise for my coming PE gym test after school everyday. It is torturing to practise in the gym room because it is a place hot like sauna room =X
It makes me sweat a lots and smelly to the MAX >.< size="1">though some of them sweat esp guys... =PHopefully everything will be all right during the test! -/\-

Next week I gonna have my PE kecergasan test (2.4KM, sit up, pumping, jumping, running ulang-alik) and PE gym test and GERKO bola tampar test (cervis, setting, digging, smatch..) ~.~
OMGosh =O
It gonna be a terribly-super-tiring-and-toturing week for me!!!
I scare GERKO test the most!!! My bola tampar skills suck!! And I really worry I fail it and kena buang from maktab..hoping for miracles so that I am able to pass GERKO test with at least C (I want B+ so that I can get sijil cemerlang)
I scare PE kecergasan test too as I couldnt do sit up well without people holding my legs. And also my 2.4KM. alamak!
I scare PE gym test too! Scare I forget the steps and accidents happen. *touchwood*
I scare and feel so nervous about every tests. Hopefully everything will be smoothly carry out =)

gym practise session, tiring!!

having our dinner with my dearest group members at 9PM after practise

gym practise cruelly made my knees becoming like this TT TT

with my new class clothes!! It is awesome! x)

IT class again~

IT class again and I'm typing my post secretly without teacher knowing , ngek*3.

So sleepy and boring learning microsoft excel Z.z my nap couldnt satisfy me!!

somehow,
HAPPY MOONCAKE FESTIVAL!! boys and girls xDD

this is my first time celebrating this festival with friends and I'm looking forward the celebrating party tonight. Hopefully I can have a memorable and great night =)

I hope I could spend this festival with all my dear friends and kmpp friends too! It sure would be a extremely GREAT party if they were all here ="(

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p/s: tried my best to mix with people now, become more talkative and playful. no more scary and nervousity when talking to guys and 'yam chong'. Sometimes, having fun with them is quite special experience too. Maybe this is their way to get close and mix well with people kot~

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pp/s: Yesterday night was a great one too! We had finally finish arranging steps for gym test. Hopefully video of my group performances would be posted up here after my pj test next week. But then, we all trapped inside gym because of it suddenly rained cats and dogs. So, we shared LOVE stories among classmates in gym under thunders and heavy rain. We had our dinner in a dark dark gym room, talking and laughing. I found that this can improve our friendship. Hope that I can well mix with everybody =)

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ppp/s: also yesterday night, I was molested by 'bc 2 yam chong' in their room. Scare me =X

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lol, why so many 'ps' ?? Aku pun tak tau =="" CIAO~

5 mins break

I am in IT class now..and I'm honoured a 5 mins break ^^V

I slept 3sth sth yesterday due to complete chinese assignments! damn it! f**king tough task!

Yesterday night, or to be exactly is early of this morning, I had been annoyed by my friend! I really fed up and felt so reluctant to talk to her. My face turned so smelly, I know it well. I know my pattern, sometime I can be too straight and I dont even scare to hurt people. I just want them to know I 'boi song' with them. Since I leaving home, I had changed alot already. If the same situation happened in my secondary school, I sure I will scold her. But I really try my best to calm down my anger ady. I just keep quiet and slowly trying to finish my work as much as possible. I hope sb show her automatic but well, I am disappointed again. Sad,huh?

Since sb is challenging my patient and my 'kindness', I think nobody is going to stand ady. I am not wrong and why should I?

I had a 'nice talk' to her, sweetly~ omgosh! Now only realised sometime I am such a nice person, yuck =P I said 'excuse me, do you know what group work means? Group work is a teamwork by all members and not done by only one person in a group. Well, we have both agree that I will complete for chinese assignment and you will be doing physical education assignment, I dont mind, I really dont mind I'm doing more for this assignment but have you complete your PE assignment? and also moral assignment?' 'NO~" is what I heard ==""

If in this situation, should I be angry?...or would you be angry? We both have the same period of holidays--2 weeks time and what are you doing? I am human being and you are too, both homo sapiens isnt it? and why I can at least finish my part and you cant? I dont mind you didnt help but I am angry with your attitude and not even finish your work! ><#####

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devil: STOP IT! start from today, if people dont want to do their work, thats it! I do it myself due to my own benefit. I dont care. I am lazy to care. If I cant tahan, only I nag and hope to see some changes, and if it doesnt change to a better way, I curse. LOL, I wont curse anybody because it just makes me dosa. What for I doing this due to silly person? Sometime, I just think that I should be more cruel, no more tolerance and patient since they are not being appreciated by people nowadays. Dont be surprise if the next time you see me, only a pair of cruel eyes and a fake smile shown.

angel: I still dont think you'll have a great change since you're always too consider about others' feelings...

coming to an end n start soon

the expected 2 weeks holidays finally come to an end =(

I back to my dorm safely, clean my room smoothly and now I own a clean little space again :)

2 weeks time can be really FAAAAAST! and I end up with nothing..

with uncompleted assignmentS and just few pieces of photo only..quite disappointed actually..but girl, you should learn to be contented and thankful of what you get, so smile plzzz ^^

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I got more missions to be done!

I gotta learn to be more sociable and no more shy =X

I gonna make my life a great one, no more plain life, hopefully I can ^^V

so here I come, 20/9/10--> START SCHOOLING>>>YEEPEE xP

it gonna be a busy week!!! A_R_G_H! XO

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P/S: NOW I'm looking forward my year end holiday, hope my dreams come true! visitpenangnkmppwithyouguys and singapore =D

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pp/s: I love the note I shared in fb.Sorry again for escaping last time. If I were in that situation again, I dont think I'll do the same silly thing because I know it hurts. But I know it's too late for me to tell you that I..ehem.... I promised you that I'll let go the past and I really do, just sometime I'll still think of you guys. How about you? How are you? my friend =)

happy and sad and homesick TT TT

miss you guys, my ex-F4 members..if i were inside =(

since yesterday, my fb homepage had been flooded by the photo of jamuan 1 Malaysia in KMPP, lols

yes, I feel happy to see all of you again =)

no, I feel sad to see all of you together and I'm alone =(

time flies, things changed!

I personally think that everybody had changed, getting older (or I should say becoming more mature), friendship getting closer, relationship with lecturers better.

How much I feel happy yet jealous? +.+
How much I wish I could be with you all~

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tomorrow I gonna say goodbye to my holidays and back to maktab again..I feel so sad that I have to face assignments, gym practices and the most important thing is I couldnt meet u guys~ BADLY MISS F4P3 and wen wen!!!aiks...

badly miss thc,10,II,yy,vf,miki,sasa,mummy,kaili,farn,pek,kid,tbq,jy,vic...

badly miss Muar and start to homesick dy..

I DONT WANT TO GO BACK IPTHO!! TT TT

can I?

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p/s: so happy that I found my lecturer's fb yesterday and she still remembers me. I'll study hard and be like you one day, miss Ong..be a good educator ^^

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pp/s: maybe you guys might forget me one day, but I SWEAR I am not going to forget you all, NEVER!!

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ppp/s:时间会冲淡一切，但它不会冲淡我对你们的思念

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突然这么觉得。。。

你变得真的好陌生

我不敢相信你是我认识这么多年的你

我无法想象我们曾经是那么地好

现在的你眼神如此冰冷

有好几次，我好想去敲刚上线的你，像以前那样

然而我止步了

我不敢

不敢再去打扰你

我没有立场

我真得很希望我们还是以前的关系--好朋友

很希望你还来约我去喝茶

我会当我们之间什么事都发生过

心软的我可以

忘记你的侮辱

忘记你的伤害

然而这两天

你的涂鸦墙让我心碎了

或许你真得很痛恨我吧？我这个与你不同世界的人类

你是高尚的美女医生；我只是个小老师

当我看到你跟现在的朋友那么好

我的心很酸，是吃醋么？是吧~

想到以前你会主动挽着我的手走在大街上

我们约好要做一辈子的好姐妹的

一切已随风飞逝

我真得很爱你这个朋友，很珍惜我们之间的相遇

你呢？

我很恨！如果当初我更努力点，跟你一样拿到JPA，我们会不会还是好朋友？

很多时候，我把这当成自己的错了

我真得很想哭

当我发现你已经意图明显地与我分割

是否你觉得我高攀不上你？

是否你觉得跟我做朋友弄脏了你纯洁的羽毛？

也许有一天

我们还会在路上遇见

那时

我们会打招呼么？会微笑么？

也许我们只会擦肩而过

我想，

人生最大的悲哀莫过于此吧~

ps:我真得很想很想很想念你。。。
pps:恶魔说:人家都这样对你了，你为什么还要留念？天使说:我做不到因为这样就讨厌她

ppps: TT TT

just a short second post for today..HAPPY ^^

Finish another 10 pieces of 'chun lian' tonight~
Another year is coming. Maybe you'll think it is just too early to prepare this but my calligraphy teacher wanna collect 10000++ 'chun lian' each year. So, we gonna start early too =)
Sometime I do feel lazy to write you know,but it is kind of 'tugasan' that I have to carry out every year for donation. It is a good deed. I dont have so much money to donate for those people who are having kidney failure and going for dialysis but I can work for them. No forcing, but I'm willing to do so. There is no point helping people under forcing and stress, isnt it? LOLS...I feel great and contented after writing 10 pieces each day. (10*RM3=RM30) That means I am gaining RM30 for them each day x)
SO, I feel happy now and hopefully I am able to finish 300 pieces of it this year. And perhaps MORE..!!
another 280 pieces to go, GAMBATEH!! ^^V

oomg! it makes my palm becomes like this and everything I touched turn RED~ =O
somehow,no pain no gain...hehe =P

bye,earthlings~

she gonna kill me~ anyway,happy sweet 18 girl ^.^

It had been 6 years we known each other. I know it aint long~but, We shared a lot and played a lot throughout this 6 years. We experienced happiness, sadness, exam fever and we even experienced 'cold war' throughout this 6 years. And now, we're still best friends though we had been apart...miss the days we chit-chatting together~argh!badly miss ~.~

Lee Yi Ling (short form,10 xP), sincerely wish you HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! hope that you're always that happy and crazy and we're friends forever!!! xD

the cute girl ^.^ 10 and THC ^^V

Take 1: I can only laugh so loud when you all are by my side without minding any image~

Take 2: A successful one =) say CHEESE^^!

NickName COMPANY FOREVER~ =P

nobody would ever know our little secret. hopefully the 'cartoon news' could be our little joke even after 10 years and more...LOVE YOU MEMBERS,muaksss!

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ps: no doubt! I'm wearing the physics @ matricity clothes if you could realise it...xP

品读庄子 放飞心灵

庄子是战国时期伟大的思想家。他宣扬道家思想并主张自然无为，此思想主张更是贯穿了他大部分的散文著作。



以我的浅见，作者在《逍遥游》的开头时引用了“鲲”与“鹏”是为了给读者一个更为宽广的想象空间。大鱼在水中虽然也可说是自由自在、无忧无虑，但水里的阻力较大，鲲的庞大虽然令人觉得自在但其庞大的身躯在水中的行动并不自在，因此庄子便让它跳脱水的束缚，化为了鹏，能在天空中翱翔。“风之积也不厚，则其负大翼也无力”，当我们觉得鹏应该能展翅高飞在蔚蓝的天空中的时候，它巨大的体型又给它带来了不便，因为它需要借助更强大的风力才能飞翔在青天。在庄子的另一部著作《秋水。濠墚之辩》中也说了：“子非鱼，安知鱼之乐？” 现实生活中，人们往往只看见一个人外形上的转变却忽略了他内心上是否得到真正的自由和快乐，这错不在人，而是我们并不是主人公又如何能读透他人的思维和想法呢？在这个日新月异的21世纪，人们非常地渴望自由。呱呱坠地的婴儿渴望长大因为能行走；求学的莘莘学子渴望长大因为能抛开考试压力，大人就像鲲与鹏一样被认为是有许多自由的然而大人也面对着烦恼，如：没有宽旷的职场让他们发挥所长。人们总是不满足于自己身处的环境，羡慕别人更安逸自由的生活才会给自己的心灵带来束缚。其实我们并不了解他们也有自己的烦恼。很多时候我们只要放开心胸，享受自己身在的环境而不是一味地追求他人所拥有的及效仿他人的生活方式，不再执著地给予自己烦恼，我们就会像鲲甩掉湿淋淋的水分化身为鹏飞腾空中，获得更大的心灵自由，真正地放飞心灵达到逍遥的境界。



日前曾在报章上读到某学生为了考试成绩不理想而认为自己无用并想不开、寻短见，自毁了美好和充满创造力的人生。在分析庄子的作品时发现了庄子对“有用”及“无用”的看法。他认为东西之所以有用是因为设在了适当的地方让它发挥其所长。他认为一棵大树虽不能用以当作圆规或角尺，但它却因为如此逃过了被砍伐的命运，它站在路旁可供路人乘凉，那也未必不是件好事。正所谓天生我才必有用，凡事都有其有用之处，只是有用无用的标准是主观的，我觉得其差别就仅仅在于看人是否会用。例如轮椅对于残障人士或行动不便的老人是非常有用的然而对于四肢健全的人也就只是起了画蛇添足的作用。有时想想，哪怕只是将地上的纸巾拾起也是对美化环境出一份绵力，是有用的作为啊。故此，我们不应该看不起自己，相反地应该努力地做好自己当个有用的人，满足的心灵就能造就自由逍遥的人生！



此外，在这个功利主义的新时代，人们常常被眼前的利润和金钱蒙蔽了双眼，认为只有富裕的生活才能达到自由。但遗憾的是，他们往往失去了亲情和快乐。因此，我非常赞同庄子所认为的道德修养高尚的“至人”能够达到忘我的境界，精神世界完全超脱物外的“神人”心目中没有功名和事业，思想修养臻于完美的“圣人”从不去追求名誉和地位。当尧欲将天下让给许由时，许由拒绝了因为他认为“名”是“实”所派生出来的次要东西，他并不在意。这就是达到了无所待，逍遥的境界。这也令我想起了曾在某书读过的文章，即飞翔是每个人想要的但殊不知飞的首要条件是够轻，倘若一个人每天都在考虑鸡毛蒜皮的琐事或心系赚钱之道的话，那试问每天顶着重达千斤的脑袋，心有所忧，又如何能够飞得起来呢？名利乃过眼云烟，所以只有不刻意追求和贪图名与利，我们才会心无挂碍，开心自在地过生活，达到真正的“圣人”般的逍遥！



品读了庄子的作品，我终于明白为何早在几年前书法老师就不时要我阅读庄子的作品，原来那是为了要我放松心情，才能将以机械化的写法抛开。果然，我学会了放下，不再执著不属于自己的东西。我相信只有放下，我才能更珍惜现在拥有的，活得更开心！让我们都释怀，放飞昨日烦躁不安的心境，拥抱自由、潇洒、逍遥的明天吧！

书法课~

很久没给自己的作品拍照PO上来了~
今天又是星期天，又有书法课。
很开心哦~
好久没给老师称赞了。。
“纯朴”是老师的comment~他说他也写不出这样天然的感觉~字如其人，所以我是个单纯的人~是吧？=P
可是单纯和纯朴的个性好么？就我而言，太天真的我容易被骗,容易受伤害吧~ 好坏就见仁见智了~^^

临习于右任草书：

是看了庄子的感悟才能放松地写吧~进步-ing x)

好大王碑~这是最近比较有感觉的一张~^^

以下是某新加坡大书法家的草书作品，写得龙飞凤舞，看了令人有心旷神怡的感觉~

学习目标！！

ps:

thank jasmin for giving me 50% of ur happiness, i am quite ok this 2 days le..

though sheding tears yesterday while reading those letters again, but is tears due to happy memories, but not emo-ing~

later gonna hangout limteh again... xD

wonder why my friends jio me at 10sth pm everytime, it is so tiring but it is worth! LOLS

so,

CIAO~ n_n

随意打打

看到了他们的对话

好伤感

看来我似乎已经被遗忘了

我已经不是他们的一员了

可是我也真得很想参进去啊

可是为什么我总显得那么突兀？

不是说看了庄子要学会放手么？

为什么还执著？

傻孩子，

人家在开心

你伤心个什么劲呀？

如果不能遗忘

就请你把它埋起来

不要再被发现了

the last 2 days were a great one! i met my primary school and secondary school friends who i had not met for ages~ we talked alot about the recent life and 3-4 hours can be passed so fast!=O i really hope for another and more gatherings between us... it'll definitely turn my bored day a nice and memorable one..only be with you all, i feel i'm not alone and wont think so much and wont be so frustrated =)

oh ya, i went to Carbana last night! this is my first time clubbing and to be honest, i DONT LIKE it =X the place was fulled of the smell of cigarette. i felt very scary and uncomfortable when i was there. The place was so dark and the people there looked so 'complicated'. And, finally i saw my primary school friend smoking..i should ask him to stop this bad habit due to his health.. Also,I dont know why i could talk and play with my primary school friends so naturally, talk so loud and show my sampat-ness in front of them without care of any rational image..lols..i always feel so hard and embarass to talk much with guys but with them i feel perfectly ok, without minding the distance too. perhaps this is because we grow up together and our relationship are just like brothers and sisters, or i should say buddies as they never treat me as girl,LOL.

i had badly insomniac last night too, after clubbing. omg, i finished reading 'the journey to west' until chapter 35 as required to be read for semester 1 and finally slept at 4AM! i'm having a bad mood now =(

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SORRY!

YO! gathering~ =D

I'LL BE GOING BACK TO MUAR SOON

swt,this is not I'm going to herald...perhaps this is from my fellows friends from kmpp,the jail..

well,

I should tell you~

I'LL MEET MY DEAREST FRIENDS SOON!!!

put your hands up! cheer for it~ yeah! xDDD
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幸福

she is wondering what's happiness?

幸福
幸福是
回到家里，躺在温暖的床上，抱着臭臭的抱抱发呆
幸福是
吃到home-cooked food，没有什么调味，只有淡淡幸福的香味
幸福是
对这家人发牢骚，带着撒娇的声音
幸福是
被家人和朋友当作小孩子般疼爱，永远当个小妹妹
幸福是
跟朋友一起聊心事，一起说八卦，一起发神经，不需要顾形象的小声讲，大声笑
幸福是
跟朋友一起熬夜读书，又一起发简讯鼓励着要睡着的对方，感觉世界上我们不是自己孤单地读着书，起码还有她的陪伴
幸福是
考到好成绩，全班羡慕又嫉妒地看着你的眼神，那种被肯定的荣耀感
幸福是
写的字被书法老师肯定，在全国赛中获奖，甚至被推荐参与国际大展
幸福是
阿公的；“乖”和离家时，家人的那句：“别哭，宝贝~”
幸福是
第一次吃自己煮的火锅，第一次穿上自己洗又香香的衣服
幸福是
朋友把我当好姐妹，把心事告诉我的时候
幸福是
知道世界上有人喜欢你的时候，那种很甜很甜又要装作不知道的时候
幸福是
当你有事时，大家第一时间来帮助你
幸福是
你开心时有人陪你开心，伤心时有人陪你哭
幸福是
有人在你无助的时候,用温暖的手紧握着你，那种被呵护着的感觉
幸福是
听到简单的三个字
幸福是
知道自己的存在很重要，当你不见时，大家的一句：“我想你，你好么？”
幸福是
离自己儿时梦想更进一步

becoming a teacher, see? i got my own name tag ^^

幸福
幸福没有真正的定义
幸福可以很简单到三个字就能满足，也可以很复杂到10个A才能满足
然而很多生活上渺小但幸福的小事都被当作不重要或理所当然，直到失去后才深感惋惜
过了就过了
家里的老人会逝去
一起读书的姐妹会失去
曾经的承诺会删去
等你想在拥抱他们的时候，没有人还会在那儿等着你
时间过了，心也会变的

我曾有过好多好多幸福
真得很庆幸
每次想起嘴角就会不自觉上扬
然而因为自己的不珍惜也失去了很多很多
长得越大，身边的假象越多
每天带着面具面对人群，我累了
就是这些幸福的因子，我才觉得没白活，为了爱我的你们，我才愿意向前进
一段失败的友情我已经伤得很深了，曾经想过是不是自己做人的失败
我累了
我好像抱抱你们，我好像回到过去~

我会珍惜现在自己拥有的，好的坏的所有的
人就是要学会珍惜
珍惜家人；珍惜所有朋友
我爱你们。我想你们
muacksss <3

with love, JC...

happy birthday, malaysia! =)

hari kemerdekaan = holiday
cheers for it!! xDD

quite emo as i feel i am being neglected by friends again...
i just couldnt join them, though i had really tried my best.
sad for it =X

no mood and lazy to talk, dunno why...
just feel so lazy, AIKS!

first time forget to bring me keys when i went out from my room
and my roomate was not in!OMG!!!
luckily she brought the keys out together,if not,we're going to sleep on corridor tonight =S
i waited patiently for her to come back from gym..
thanks honey =)
i think you're the BEST roomate
though sometime we may have different opinions and living styles~
but so far we havent quarel yet o! *touchwood*
and we're not going to have it ^^V

today blur blur de...@@
going to sleep ady..nitez^^ muacksss~