给我真心当朋友的朋友

真心当朋友的朋友，为什么你不会第一时间想解救我？

真心当朋友的朋友，为什么你的第一选择不是我？

真心当朋友的朋友，为什么你还会面对两难？

是你真心地对太多人，还是根本没有真心对过我这个朋友？

每次谈到这个话题，我就很低落，因为你们的答案总是“时间未到，再看吧，在打算。”

船到桥头真的会自然直吗？不会触礁吗？:(

这个假期的回顾+夜晚没经过大脑的抱怨废话

似乎每当到了假期末的夜晚，我就越舍不得早睡。
“晚上不想睡，早上不想起”这似乎是每个年轻人的通病 *谁叫我是年轻人？XD*
明明每晚没事做了，我就是舍不得去睡啊，随便逛逛网站打发时间至始终显示1-2am了才甘愿去见周公。假期就快过了，这个假期我过得非常充实！虽然也是有懒散的时候，但比起其他时候已经算不错了吧。
其实PBS的那个星期我已经把它当假期了，只要可以在家，每天都是好天。
一放学，一假期就独自跑到KL去挤人家马大宿舍，明明超级不苏胡，但就是硬要见到朋友，硬要玩，硬要体验进大学，硬要体验两天的大学生活。什么都硬硬来，结果人家宿舍有活动，说什么开放男子参观然后全部人得负责布置宿舍，走廊人来人往，天知道我多害怕被捉，害我的姐妹遭殃。所幸... (:
这个假期的收获是花光了RM250的书卷，虽然花得有点不值了，但起码我的小书桌变成了小图书馆。其实我不知道我需要花多久才能把这些书看完，但每天做功课看到它们就排在我眼前，我就莫名地兴奋。那感觉就像女人血拼买一大堆衣服鞋子，没穿没关系，纯欣赏就好的那种兴奋！我就只这样一个女孩~
我喜欢逃避，喜欢幻想。赶课业时总是想着考试想着读书不用再去上课，考试周时总想看小说不用考试那该多棒，然后总算盼来了假期我却浪费时间没看小说。最后一日复一日，小说成了最佳摆设品。:( 好啦，下个假期我一定要设target把几本看完，不辜负政府的一番苦心。

我赏心悦目的风景。

戏看也看够了，KL玩也玩够了，朋友看也看够了，小说买也买够了，snowflake吃也吃够了，是时候开启假期打发时间最好的方法——赶课业！

课业说多也不多，不是自己拖，其实埋首几天就能完成了。我却花了5天才把它们做完。>< 其实算快了吧？但我还是觉得我能更有效率。*最近真的太懒散了，噢斗给？*

最近染上一个习惯，逛部落格。最近我更新的次数蛮频繁的吧，相比去年，懒惰的去年害我的回忆没记录到，所以这次下定决定要记录每分每秒。没人陪我说话，我就把它们写下来吧。最近想逛部落格，看看别人怎么过生活*八卦鸡婆*，但拥有部落格的朋友本就不多，勤劳更新的更是少之又少，所以就乱去看别人的link。最近逛的部落格大多是朋友的朋友，一些大学生的部落格，大多都是医生和牙医。对大学生的生活我本就十分好奇，对于这种专业人士的生活更是好奇。*不知道有没有人对老师是怎么被打造感到好奇呢？* 我发现，原来看似风光，每天吃喝玩乐，拍一大堆照片的大学生原来那么忙碌。我总是以为他们很空闲才一直出门，结果并没有，每个人都是拼命读书。我也总是以为只有我和我同班之间才有不和，原来看似和平的笑脸，他们私下也是有纠纷的。这就是人吧，而且是女人！我也总是觉得大学生成绩一定超棒，毕竟医学系等听起来多好听呀，结果他们只希望及格。及格，在他们眼里是那么地遥不可及，需要费多大的心力努力。*是我见识低，是我把大学想的太完美了*

霎时间，觉得我自己好像小孩子，为了拼成绩读到这么辛苦。有些朋友更是可笑，把资料东躲西藏，读书怕人知，什么都不愿意分享。到底大家在怕什么呢？大学生的功课都抄来抄去的，得知我小心收藏，笑了，说道：你们毕业后都只是一名老师，到底在比什么？*不好意思，见笑了。* 每个人的方式，我不予置评。从他们的言语态度看来，似乎有意无意地看轻着我的专业，认为不过是个教师干嘛这么辛苦。是我自卑心理还是他们果真如此？我努力，纯粹是想跟大学的朋友一样，他们那么拼，我不能无所事事，我不想被他们瞧不起。他们总是我的目标。教师怎么了？不要想象教师那么容易当，那么容易读，好吗？医生读anatomy我们也得读，computer science做什么video我们也得学着做，所有大学必修科我们也得读。我们读的文学，教学法，写的教案，做的教具，又不见得你们懂。我们只是学院小了点，认识的人少了点，办活动经验缺了点，但一旦当上老师就不一样了。对，自己看得起自己最重要！

*我知道自己很矛盾，向往大学生活，觉得人家好，我不好，在被看不起时有强烈protest自己不输他们*

没有老师，你们，谁也不是！哈哈哈~
我不能再因为自己进不了大学而自卑，根本是我自己不要它才不是它不要我哈哈哈，我要相信自己选择的路是最棒的！我要加油，证明自己是最棒的！*正面能量-ing!!!*

凌晨两点。热。冷气坏了。冲冷水澡，依然黏。

摄于姐妹宿舍，看到这个我笑了。一个星期过去了。

婧婵公主，下个要微服出巡的地方，未定。

假期过了，要回书斋好好加油！期待下个假期回皇宫充电再次出巡。

加油！！！倒数7-8星期。

Desperate for more.

My BB1M gone like this. :(
I wasn't satisfied because there are some other things from my wish list that I didn't manage to get it. I was quite regret to spend my voucher in Borders due to my Starbucks crave. I should use them in Popular so that I could get another rm50 voucher to buy more books and stationery.
What I had miss out this time are Life of PI, The best part of me and Between the lines. And I would like to buy patterned scissors, correction tape refill, file rings, books wrapper somemore. If I spent my voucher in Popular I think I had owned all these things. But now, I think I gonna spend my own money for these. :(( Hopefully there would be another rm250 voucher for me to hunt more books next year, PLEASE!!

我的这群朋友。

我们不可能是对方最好的朋友，甚至或许连好朋友都称不上。
我们的真正相处只有不到五个星期，甚至可以说只是每晚在图书馆的几个小时。
我们完全不了解对方的饮食习惯、生活方式、办事效率、学习态度，甚至连真实性格也不甚清楚。
我们绝对是在不同的大学、读者不同的科系、向着不同的未来迈进，甚至从不曾在同一个课室上过同一堂课。
我们根本没有机会天天见面，甚至连见一面都需要整个月的安排，一年能见上一次已是一大乐事。
我们就算见面也未必有说不完的话题，甚至有时会静到有些尴尬。

但，
这又如何？
一个月的短暂相处，家乡不同，大学不同，科系不同的我们，能联系到今天，我觉得已经很棒了。我真的很心满意足了。就连我家人都一直说我们的相遇相知相聚是难能可贵的，要我好好珍惜。我真心希望我们会是一辈子的朋友，就算平日忙的没联络，但能在一有空时就想到对方一起出去吃喝玩乐。
对我而言，没有会断的友谊。如果说忙，说远，说没话聊，而与朋友渐行渐远，其实都只是借口。只要有心，就能排除万难见上一面，哪怕相聚的时间只是短短的几个小时也能让人觉得开心幸福。

好朋友固然是互相了解、有共同话题、有很多话说的一群。但，未必口头上“亲爱的”，机械式地背着对方生日和喜好，每天在同一个课室上课，有很多话说就是真正真正的好朋友。

真正的好朋友，我想，是我心里有你，你心里有我。

KL trip with beloved bestie and KMPP friends

After PBS on Friday, I jumped onto a bus and have my KL trip. I rarely went to KL and never been to KL alone because KL always give me the impression of 'dangerous' and 'messy'. After I requested for one year plus, my aunts finally gave me the permit. One month before I had already planned for this trip. Somehow, my friends all seemed busy with their works and exams and it actually quite disappoint me. Luckily, they still could take some time to entertain me. (:

Reach TBS for the very first time to wait for Heng Chen. She was late and I felt so scared. I didnt know how to go to UM alone and therefore waited her at the lobby for 1 hour. Take 2 LRT and change to bus only can bring us to her hostel KK1. There was an activity in her KK that night, singing competition perhaps, so I pretended like an UM-ians and watched the show there. That night really tired and couldnt sleep well coz the floor was really hard. Staying at UM hostel made me felt so relief to be a guru pelatih *for the first time* because the conditions of our hostel and toilet is so so much better than theirs. I really couldnt imagine how they're going to stay at such place for years.

Finally the morning was coming. Woke up and prepared and met Cheow at the bus station to go Midvalley together. It had been nearly 3 years since we last met. Luckily it wasnt that awkward because we could still chat quite something.

Met up and had our lunch at Madame Kwan. Ordered the highlights - nasi lemak which is recommended by the Tourism Department. Quite delicious but it was too big set for me to finish. No matter how full my stomach was, I was so determined to have my Snowflake *Mission cleared!* XD Nobody wanna share with me so I gonna finish this big bowl of Orchado in the car. *Happy Kid*

Si Yuan fetched us to I-city Shah Alam afterwards. RM5 for this Trick Art Museum!! Very worth because we really took a lot of photo inside and laughed like crazy when posing. XD

Group photos come first:

On the raft

Carry a big whale!

Outside the museum

We sat on the seat but the staff asked us dont because this toy train is for kids and we are too Heavy for that! Oops.

The perverts!!

Best Pic for this drawing! I couldnt take a nice one for this no matter how hard I tried and give people laugh ):

NAH..... THE TRICK ART MUSEUM  

 One of the funny shot of the day.

This few guys really quite sampat *out of my expectation*

 The mirror. 

There was one girl said I'm Heng Chen's sister because we looked quite alike: same spec, same hairstyle. But I know we are different because she is thin and I'm fat :(

 镜中人，给我出来！

 Another funny photo. XD

 Nies, can you see the shark's intestines? Haha

 Hey, the boys beside my house!

Go down the staircase.

 I think the wooden bridge gonna break soon!!

 ARGH~~

 OMG, dont drop please!!

 Push you away!

 Climbing up

 One of a success photo. Quite real.

 Blow bubbles

 Wanna crawl inside.

 Angels

 Protect the eggs.

 I like this photo because it is very colourful

 I am not a good actress and this is one of my rarely success photo. *LIKE*

 Like this because I looked thin (:

Same drawing, felt differently. 

Kiss kiss on the top and it looked sweet, chasing buttock at the bottom and it looked fierce.

 Money face!!

 Thanks for the tea, lady.

 Grapes.

 *Like*

 Shhhhhh...

 Dont kill me!!

 Oops, she broke the drawing!

 Heng Chen with ET.

 Squeezing milk for Jasmin.

MUMMY is coming from TV.

 Angels for the trip. 

优雅小姐们和扮可爱的男子们。

Spider man!

We took more than 300 photos in just an afternoon. The merciless sun disappeared when we came out and soon it started raining cats and dogs. Si Yuan drove with fully attention while Mr Nies slept soundly. Hahaha

Back to Midvalley to have our lunch at Dragon-I 龙的传人. My uncle brought me to have my meal in Dragon-I Cheras Leisure Mall when I was so small but still I could remember the nice taste of the xiao-long-bao. Half chicken for only RM1!!! (Terms and conditions: at least 3 persons/table, 6pm-9pm) So 6 of us separated into 2 tables to have own chicken. 3 of the girls had chicken, rice, xiao-long-bao, ma-po-taofu for only RM14+/person. So cheap!!

 The UKM-ians gonna back to hostel. Cheow, Si Yuan accompanied to spend my book voucher. So we took our last photo before they left.

 With Mr Nies *the pig* HAHAHA 

Keep soot me today ><#

 With Si Yuan *Driver of the day*

THANKS for fetching us for the whole day and purposely wait for me to buy books and fetch me back to UM. *Big brother and forever friends (:*

With Mr Cheow!! 

Really happy to meet him *3 years no see coz he always set me aeroplane when I asked him for Muar trip*

Went to visit UM main library at around 10am. Met Darween and Vermanyap and had our lunch at MCD KL sentral. They said I looked serious. I think I am quite serious type, but I am also a very sampat girl once you mix well with me. Haha. Heng Chen gonna busy with group discussion so the 2 guys brought me to TBS. 

THANKS

to Heng Chen the bestie for taking the risk and let me sleep in her room.

to her roomates for didnt chase me out and report and lend me her bed.

to Si Yuan the driver for drive me here and there.

to Jasmin the babe for meeting up even though sick and looked so pale. Take care, okay?

to Nies the pig, Cheow the aeroplane king, Darween the brother, and Vermanyap the internet friend for taking their time and meet up with me.

Really feel so relief to have you all as my friends. I know I do looked serious sometime *because of my easy-get-shy-with-guys character* but I really appreciate and cherish our friendship. Hope we could meet more often because I really enjoy every moments outing with you all. You all never never fail to brighten my day you know? :)

This is how my KL trip and gonna rush for assignment in this one week holidays. 

Gambateh Jing Chan you can do them well!!!