记录第五届沈慕羽杯书法精英赛 :)

假期过了，
整个假期过得很充实，都在做自己喜欢的事。
假期写了300幅春联供慈善用途，看了2本英文小说，6套剧。
最令我开心的不仅是几天前的21岁生日，还有这份迟来的生日礼物。
沈慕羽杯书法精英赛公开组三等奖！
我彷徨过，失意过，质疑过。
甚至在比赛现场都很没自信，抱着陪跑心态在写。
心情像做云霄飞车一样，起起伏伏。
一开始，觉得自己写得还可以吧？可是被老师说写得太干了。
吃了午餐，回到现场等成绩，看着墙上挂上了几幅作品，算一算10张了，心想自己又只是入选了。
谁知道评审评述时发现墙上挂着的10多张不全是公开组得奖作品，心想有机会吧（？）
谁知评审评述时说到整体隶书水平并不高，写得很干像狗尾巴一样，很怪等等。我又想糟了，我的就是蛮干的，唉，没希望了。
入选奖成绩公布时，我就想快叫我吧，拿到了就安心了。
倒数中...
我没在入选名单内？
我进了10大，3强？
最后，三等的最后一个名字念到我了？
我不是在做梦吧？
我傻了。
真的，很久很久很久没拿大奖了。心里也好想拿奖，谁比赛不想得奖？入围就是肯定是说来安慰人的。
可是每次都被评得很糟，每次被评都好想哭。不是因为被批评而哭，是因为努力又再一次被否决。我是个没自信的傻孩子，哪怕是一句称赞都很开心。但，不如人愿，每次抱着希望，剩下失望，自信心就在一次次中被磨得所剩无几。
因此，我特别珍惜这份三等奖，肯定。
它，就像一个强心剂一样，让我觉得庆幸自己的努力总算被人看见了，我不是浪费时间浪费纸张的。
当然，
我还不是最好的。
还有更高的荣誉和肯定等着我去进步。
书法，是一辈子的事。
我要做的，不只是写字，不只是受肯定，最重要的是推动。
在得到之余，也能将这项文化发扬，做出微薄的贡献。
这才是一个书法人应该做的事。
加油，婧婵！
:)

SPOT ME!

和我的奖状。

和我十二年的恩师，刘明亮老师。

和时常给予意见，帮助我的林清忠老师。:)

和我的得奖作品。

I like this photo a lot. It looked so random. Thanks Ker Neng for the nice pic. :)

书法这堂课，难。

平常因为课业关系和距离问题，我甚少出席书法讲座。今天我出席了周俊杰教授的讲座因为我真的很喜欢他的书风，这种朴实、沉着、豪迈、大器的字。我好希望自己也能写这样的字。他的中国腔非常浓，所以我只能大概捉到几个重点。写字的重点是临帖，选择一种书体中最有代表性的传统碑帖来临摹至很熟练了才加入其他家的碑帖和自己的领悟才来创作。传统真的很重要。今天的讲座会真的获益良多因为他还当场为我的作品做出了点评，一位中国书法家排名10大的大师为小女子的作品点评真的是很难得的机会。他很讶异我这个清秀的女孩写这么大器的字，但线条较薄弱，应该注意章法的排列，应该把力量更集中在手腕，注意用笔。*如果我没听错？*

周俊杰教授现场挥毫的作品。我超喜欢这种字体的！！

和周教授合影。=)

谢谢他对我的字做出点评。

此外，符永刚博士还特地把我叫到一旁给我指点，我也很荣幸有这个机会！听他指点的时候，我一直强忍着泪水。他是我很敬佩的人，由于他太厉害了，是书法界的大阿哥，在厉害的人面前我显得非常渺小所以我很容易手足无措，脸都青了。像听到开示这般，我就很容易会哭。*没用+不勇敢的我，呵呵* 很荣幸他愿意花时间讲解我的弱点给我听，但其实听了指点蛮难过的。我难过不是因为批评，我明白有批评才有进步，我难过是因为自己总是做不好，瓶颈一直一直都没闯过去，这么多年了，我知道自己都在原地打转，我未必是最努力的那个但我真的有付出过，可是...... 他告诉我不要再学这样的字形了，再这样下去只是浪费时间*直中红心，我知道一直都在浪费时间*，应该学会传统的碑帖如乙瑛碑、张迁碑、曹全碑等等，待基础更扎实了才步入这种创作阶段，否则只是转牛角尖。

这些碑我小时候都写过，但我想小时候的印象不深、领悟不强所以应该重新临过。小时候一写石门颂、好大王，大家都会惊叹，或许小时候有的是童真吧，这样的字还蛮吃香的，也拿了不少的大奖，但随着年龄的增进，脑袋越来越理性，不知怎的有一天这样的写法就被批评了。因此，每次我都很迷惘，继续写又会机械化，不写手感又不见了，写得太专注线条又僵硬，随便写又太随便。经过一番“开示”，我的迷惘似乎看见了出路，我终于知道下一步要怎么走了。为了比赛而玩这种大小不一、看似刺激的字，是时候搁在一旁了吧。这，不是我这年纪应该做的。我要抱着初心，从新学过，为了能走更长远的路。万丈高楼平地起就是这样吧。我在想，如果还是写不好下次符博士会不会对我感到失望？会不会就不指点我了？他一直叫我不要放弃，要继续学习，慢慢写，好好写，接下来再告诉我下一步路该怎么走。我很感动。他，一位这么了不起的大家愿意指导我。我不想令他失望，也不想让老师失望，更不想对不起自己。我一定要好好练，更扎实地打好基本功，我希望也相信总有一天他会说“总算有点进步了”。加油加油！书法这条路，决不能放弃！=D

回家，谢谢爸爸载我往返马六甲到这么夜。星巴克让我重拾笑容。

明天继续加油！

=)

2 days Singapore trip.

It was really a very very busy yet fruitful week for me to kick off this September. Back from Mersing camp site and the next place to go was Singapore. It had been nearly 2 years since I last landed on this island. And I was there to take part in calligraphy competition this time. I sent my art piece for fun and who know I was selected in this finale. This was my first time taking calligraphy competition in Singapore. I asked myself to keep it simple and not to aim too high because I dont know what is the style the judges there prefer. 

Though I didnt manage to win any prize at last, I felt happy too because there were some people praising me for my writing. I will keep working hard for the next time. Hopefully I can win and earn Singapore dollars next year. (:

The banner.

The competition was held at Waterloo Street. Since it was so near to Kwan Im Thong, how could I *the pious Buddhist* miss out the chance to visit and pray over there? :)

MacDonald for breakfast. McMuffin with chicken and egg set meal which only costs us $4.95.

The chilli sauce in Singapore is different with ours. I prefer ours more.

Grilled chicken for dad which costs around $7.

Mac Aloo Tikki vege burger at $2 and Butterscotch Sundae at $1.50 for me. Have a try on this because there isnt such things on Malaysia MacDonald menu.

I heard KOI is a quite famous/ popular brand in Singapore. Since I met it coincidentally so I decided to have a try too. The milk tea was smooth and the 'pearl' were chewy. Bubble tea at $2.80. KOI is actually 豆 in 90 degree, did you realise that?

Bought Famous Amos at $5.70 *for 100gram* Bought 3 packs of them so that my family could have a try on this cookies.

Bought a sling bag at $20 from Hurs. Love this type of bag and aim for it for a long time. Since my grey sling bag is very old so I decided to buy a new one. 

I so so wanted to go Singapore to work and get high paid! Malaysia Ringgit is so small in value. Personally think everything in Singapore is cheaper compared to Malaysia *dont count about currency laaahhh* , except car, house, petrol.

It motivates me to study harder so that I could work over there in the future. Singapore is always an ideal country for me. Yes, Study hard for a better future!! :)

Calligraphy class.

很开心也很意外，讲师竟然叫我教大家书法！说“教”还真是严重了，其实我把它当作一种分享，一个学书法以来的里程碑。学了10几年了，不仅仅有比赛，有得奖，还有了新的教学体验。当然啦，说不紧张是假的，讲解的时候还是手抖脚抖，但一直深呼吸，告诉自己不用怕，慢慢地心情才平复了下来。很庆幸自己曾在大大小小的教师书法营中担任过几次助教，从一开始害怕到前一晚放声大哭的中五生，到现在这个能够独当一面的师训生，看到自己的成长，我真的很开心。以前我真的很不会说话，看到人家写的不好也不知道错在哪里，但一次次的经验让我已经慢慢看得出大家在笔画上容易犯的通病。这真的要谢谢我的书法老师，刘明亮老师和林清忠老师给我这些宝贵的经验。

有别于老师们的教学方式，我亲自录制了写笔画的步骤的video，因为我觉得如果写在麻将纸上浪费时间且不一定能让所有朋友看得清楚。我左手拿camera，右手拿笔，就这样完成了我的video。当大家看得不明白时，就重播重播再重播，果真省时省力。讲师也很喜欢这个录影。

课前拍照留念。

 开始了。我好小一只。

示范如何握笔。

 刘讲师近距离拍我如何握毛笔。

 大家都写得很认真噢！真棒！

讲师对我的表现表示赞赏，说是她们听过最仔细分解笔画的书法课。对于讲师的高度评价，我真是欣喜若狂！跟我的老师比起来，他们说的如何欣赏书法和分析一大堆名家作品才是强！教笔画，我还是应付得来的，但也只有这套功夫了。毕竟书法博大精深，会写的人不一定会说，会说的人不一定会写，我会说的也只是皮毛，一定还要更钻研免得笑掉别人大牙。看到大家认真努力越来越进步，我也不想要原地踏步。

去新山挥春的时候被某些人说我的书法比往年退步了，我很伤心很失望也有点不满。我不喜欢别人这么批评我，毕竟有谁喜欢被批评？我也不喜欢别人赞美我，因为有自知之明被称赞时好心虚。所以一下巴士回到家我就拿出老师的字范练习了2-3小时。隔一个星期再到新山挥春，那些某某人说我脱胎换骨。这样被称赞起来才开心因为不心虚。但是我知道自己的水平在哪里，一山还有一山高。今年，我希望自己的书法能更上一层楼，草书越练越有味道！Hwaiting!! ^0^

The painting exhibition

I learnt Chinese Painting since I was 10? Until I was sitting for SPM and really dont have extra time to relax my mind and draw. Now, when I recall back the time, I really miss it. Mr Tan is a very good and affable teacher. He and his wife very sayang me like her granddaughter. They helped me to held a painting exhibition when I was in Form 2. And so, it is a must to visit his painting exhibition to support him. I hope he will be healthy always so that I have the chance to learn painting from him. :)

With my art teacher and his wife.

The draw me and my aunt bought. RM4888. 

My art teacher's paintings are awesome.

With my respectful chinese painting teacher, Mr Tan. 

2012 马六甲教师书法培训营 (5-7.6.12)

趁着记忆犹新，又刚好得空就来记录一下这次的书法营吧。

这是我第N个书法营。第一次是2009年在新山南方学院，记得那时候我还只是个中五的“小妹”，因为第一次被老师叫去教老师，感到太过压力而哭了。好没用的我~老师现在提起还是不免取笑我一番。><

之后一次次的书法营，一次次地吸取经验，慢慢地我在指导营员的时候就比较会说话了。这次我比较会也比较敢于更正他人的不足了。

书法营的第二天，我异常地感到伤心，整个人提不起劲。或许是因为要挥毫的关系吧。觉得自己只是一味地要凑人数，老师或许只是不好意思不叫我挥一下，我的确是原地踏步，一直突破不了撞墙期，让自己很失望，我想老师也对我感到失望吧？对不起。我真的很希望再创高峰，可是.....有时候现实总是那么残酷。

只能想着老师在营里说的一段话 “不要羡慕那些厉害的人，因为他们学得快，可是半年没写字就会空掉了，笨的人写不好一直练，功力才会厚”。我也只能靠这些话安慰一下自己了吧。呵呵~也谢谢符博士在最后一天对我的肯定和循循善诱。我一定要好好努力，好好写，不让你们失望！加油 :D

我很喜欢的一幅字。by石庵。喜欢康有为的风格~

这次的书法营没那么闷，除了因为老师充实的讲解，也因为在那儿有朋友陪我说话。第一天才认识的阿莫学长、帮老师招生时自动报名的汶铉学长和desmond还有对书法活动十分支持的晓英老师。能认识她真是从书法营结的缘。

阿莫学长和他所谓很像小孩子的字。

其实我觉得不错啊，两天半能写成这样。我小时候练了两年半字形都还是很不稳呢！

汶铉学长就更厉害啦！

现场每个人都说他写得很好，还拿到了优秀奖和刘老师挥毫的作品呢！

书法营的最后一天是在沈慕羽文物馆闭幕的。这是我第一次参观文物馆，里头有许许多多沈老的介绍、收藏、照片和作品。看到他95岁大寿时的生日时，很多回忆一涌而上，那时我还中三！大家都期望能在他一百岁的时候再来热闹热闹。谁知道..... T_T 看到那些哀悼的报道我不由得鼻头一阵酸。我想念他，他每次出席活动时的致词总是那么有精神~永远的偶像！:")

闭幕礼由小女子我担任司仪，做得并不理想。有点卡词，很害怕！但是晓英老师说很好，哈哈，我镇定的外表真是骗到了人。其实我冰冷的手一直在发抖~~~谢谢小学老师给予我机会参加演讲比赛，算是还有些底子吧，但很久没练了，难免怯场。我要更勇敢，加油！XD

在沈慕羽文物馆的座谈会。

大家都听得很认真呢！很棒~

跟符博士合照。在他旁边我真的很小一只。不管外形或内在的修养都很渺小。我很敬佩他。很开心他认得我，给予我勉励和指教，更答应写字送我！超开心超感动的~我会好好收藏！

IPTHO-ians和刘明亮老师合照。那么多一不多人，我还真有点意外。

全体照。

番外：

在学校都不认识对方的学长学妹，去到书法营才来认识，哈哈。谢谢学长两个晚上抽空带我到处趴趴走哦~后来才知道学长家里住很远又很忙，所以真有点不好意思。^^"" 话说我也吃了雄心豹子胆，说真的平时在学校我对学长姐有一定的敬畏，平常在学校真的只是会腼腆地叫一声“学长”、“学姐”，可是这次居然敢跟他们讲那么多话还敢顶嘴还一起去唱K。我还真有点给自己吓到~哈哈。XD

和阿莫学长~~~ :)

和汶铉学长和desmond :)

十一点回到家，充实的三天两夜就这么过去了。超级累的！但感觉真的非常充实和难忘，因为见到了老朋友也认识了新朋友，刘老师的讲课也更棒了，让我学到很多东西。希望有机会再一起参与书法活动，一起将书法发扬光大，大家加油！

- 终 -

^___^

My Jb and Sg Trip 28-31 May :)

I had been keep waiting for this day to come 3 weeks ago when my caligraphy teacher Mr Steven informed me that I am going to participate in this Singapore-Malaysia Caligraphy interflow exhibition and visiting Tan Swie Hian Musuem (the art gallery the the top artist in Sg) . I went to jb one day before and headed to Sg on 29.
The Singapore Calligrapher welcomed us with tangan terbuka and polite smile. It makes us so touched! This talk was about the development of calligraphy and arts in both lands. Well, to be frank, it was really lame and made me fallen in sleep when listening to it. Haha.

jC, Qian Hui, and Oh baby~ :D
3 of us with the art piece from my beloved calligraphy teacher - Mr Lau.

Ker Neng and me with another calligraphy teacher - Mr Steven Lim.

Camwhore with Ker Neng the little hangsome boy. Oh baby, jC and Ah Kang the humorous guy!

with Mr Steven.

Tang Tang.....the art works from calligrapher. Never forget to mention the left bottom art piece is written by a 12 years old boy. Cool! :)

Writing on spot.

We then bid a farewell with the Teo Chiew Association and going to Tan Swie Hian Musuem. *Excited*

On the way there. A super nice and colourful building :)

jC with the impressive art work :)

with Ah Kang and the calligraphy by Sun Yat Sen.

*Dont tell me you dont know who is he?*

Zhao Cai sis, Ker Neng bro and jC

Check it out!!

He is Tan Swie Hian. The owner of this museum. The artist who produced so many great pieces of drawing. The person who is well-known as Sg top artist. He is so generous coz he gifted us 5 books and offered us to visit this museum. I like him! He is handsome and polite as well :)

Part of his drawing. Just PART of it.

I like this drawing the most. I like the shadow below. A boy and a girl. Seemed like a simple yet romantic love huh? :)

The second floor of the musuem. The floor is designed with the calligraphy he wrote. It is really special design.

Forgot to upload another plaque is given by Sg president- Mr Nathan. Now can you imagine how cool is this artist? haha.

With my new friend-Ah Kang's gf!! She is my senior too. Graduatee from IPG Ipoh from opsyen Math and now teaching in SJKC Endau. :)

Mr Tan Swie Hian not only draws, he writes too. My calligraphy teacher said this work is amazing coz the line of the works is fulled with energy and the structure is good.

Everybody back to Jb after this while I am the only one staying in Sg alone. Going to visit my relative. I am overwhelemed with bravery today. I was in a strange new place where I had never been to there, yet I walked to the nearest MRT station and walked to my relative's house alone. The musuem is at Sims Avenue which is in between Paya Lebar and Ajunied. I walked to Ajunied MRT station, took the train and went to the area where my relative stay - Eunos. As I said, Sg is really a safe country. You no need to worry your safety when you are walking alone. Besides, the transportation there is super duper convenient. You can go to anywhere you want with MRT or buses only with the prasyarat you know chinese or english and the most important element, MONEY! Yoy can just thumb a drive for taxi once you found you are lost. I LOVE this country so much!!!!!!! After meet up with daddy and brothers in the Eunos foodcourt and had my dinner, we took mrt to Bedok to search for new casing for my newly bought iPhone. I bought a chilli-red leather casing with $15 and 3 plastic casing with $10. They are damn cheap! My legs were fucking painful after walking for kilometers, so that is the end of my happy day.

The next morning, we went to Sentosa Island. I was so refusing to go there coz I went there before. But my brothers were so keen to visit there. 2:1. I was losed, so I had to go. Somehow, we just strolled around there coz the entrance ticket is damn expensive and we were short in time, so we just expericed the cable car with $26/ person. GOSH! My face turned so 'smelly' and black because I found it is really not worthy

Inside the cable car.

Casino!!

Universal Studio!!! I am so tiny in size. Haha.

I am so keen to visit. Make sure I will visit it next time with friends.

$66-$72, saving money from now.

The camwhore technique isnt that bad :P

woah!!

The view of the Universal Studio taken from cable car.

Back.

After visiting Sentosa Island, we went for shopping. The shopping mall is so enormous and fulled with branded things. I was lost there and couldnt find my daddy. And my legs were super painful! So I was annoyed and decided to back to Eunos from there again. Luckily I found them back. WTH!!! xO I couldnt find the essay books that I want from the Kinokuniya bookshop there. So we took a taxi to Parkway mall and still it was to no avail. Wasted our $10++ taxi fees. Ish ish ish. We gave up and back to home.

We asked our relative and went to Paya Lebar to search for the presence of Popular. Now only I know that reference books are only sold in Popular, but only novels are sold in other bookshops like Kinokuniya and Page 1 bookshop. Damn it! My bro and I spent $95.18 in buying books - O level and A level essay books for my need in preparing Muet exam and O level vocabulary exercises, Add math exercise for my bro and a Cambridge Grammar of English dictionary for our own improvement. I hope I wont waste the money and could really put it some effort in reading them to save my deteriorating broken english. :(

Btw, I was so keen to buy english novels!!! I was getting so excited when I saw books! Just like a shopaholic lady saw clothes and shoes, but I had to control myself and stop myself from buying them coz I havent finish the House of Night series from yy after one year borrowed from her. The novels are really cheap compared to Malaysia, $15.90 each and it is really thick. Too bad I couldnt own them, feel sorry to myself. I promise you, I will immediately hunt all of you books once I finished my collections at home. :)

Chat with my lao gor until 11pm and went to sleep. We chatted alot about her history of being a 'Sim-pu-kia' when she was just 12, married to a stranger and came to Sg. We also chatted about parts of my grandpa's history and I shed a tear when thinking back of him. Miss you, ah gong........T_T

jC with lao gor. She really looks like my grandpa!!!

jC, brothers and lao gor.

We were leaving at 11am and I knew lao gor was extremely sad. She kept asking me to stay back but I rejected coz I was paiseh to disturb her. I found she is pity and lonely, she is so rich and her house is so huge, but her children and grandchildren are all not staying with her. She is living alone, taking care of herself alone, nobody to talk with. I wish lao gor can be in the best of health!! I got no more ah gong and she is just like my grandma, I hope I could have the chance to drive her visiting Muar or visiting her in Sg more, accompany her to chat more. I know she really sayang us and I sayang her too. Ah gong, please bless your sister always...

Back to Muar at 5pm.

The new clothes for my new toy iPhone baby :P
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