My kids.

It has been about one month I'm working here,

teaching this bunch of lovely kids.

Life has never been easy.

Each day, I am facing different circumstances and thinking of the suitable solutions.

I am still very new to teaching world.

The experience during practicum didn't really help much.

'Cuz it is totally different only teaching Chinese and being a class teacher who teaches Chinese.

Sometimes, I felt bad about myself.

I felt sorry for my kids.

I didn't really have enough time to prepare a perfect lesson for them.

I spent most of the time on discussing exercises and spoon-feeding them.

I have no time to actually get to know them, know their background and so on.

I would use some recess time to advice them and counsel them.

And I felt amazing when I saw their behavior get better the next lesson.

But the problem is I don't know how long would the effect stay?

I hope I could have better time management,

not to only teach them,

but also educate them.

That's not easy but that's what I am trying to do now.

I scare I might rotten their discipline recently.

I felt disappointed on myself when I found my scolding and yelling getting more,

and the noise getting louder.

I felt sad when I saw the amount of books that submit to me getting lesser,

and the cross I marked getting more.

I wondered which step I had gone wrong.

I just don't feel like spoon-feeding them 100% before they hand up their exercises to me.

But perhaps my guidance wasn't enough for them to get their work done.

I am still trying different style of teaching.

I am still finding my way.

 To be their best class teacher,

their mom 

and their most reliable person in school.

I really love my class and my kids.

I hope I could change them a better person.

And I'm trying hard.

*Too short, it is hard to find me.*

Photo on Chap-Goh-Meh, the last day of CNY.

We were having a small party in class.

The time was short, the session was quite messy, but it was fun. 

We ate biscuits and we sang CNY songs together.

That's little something that I would like to record down here.

I felt really sweeeeeeeet when my kids called me 'god-mom'.

That's just a joke but I really appreciate them calling me like that. That made our teacher-students relation getting closer.

I felt really touched when they remembered I mentioned that I love fried crab stick and they gave it to me, keep asking me to have one.

最近，

我一直在灌输他们的是，

我不打他们，也不想骂他们，不是因为什么，

而是因为我尊重他们。

我希望他们也会因此而尊重我。

学会“尊重”，感觉会解决很多问题。

互相尊重可以避免班上不同种族而引起的误会。

同理心会让他们学习了解他人，体谅他人。

结论，

我不希望他们因为我凶，害怕我而变乖，

我希望的是，他们因为敬我，爱我而变听话，变好学。

I don't really know what's the point I'm typing this? 

Just some feelings.

Just feel like typing.

I hope there are more sweet things among us happen in my life.

xoxo

Make up fun.

I refused to learn and to apply any make up last time.

I was feeling alright to bring my naked face even my friends make up gorgeously whenever we hanged out.

I just felt not necessary and troublesome.

I would even blame my friends for spending so much time to do make up before hanging out.

But before I was going to graduate from Uni, I finally learnt it from them.

I admit I want to make some change, to turn out prettier. 

Somehow the main reason is because I felt that was the right timing. 

I acted like a student when I was a student. And I felt it wasn't necessary for students to make up. *Narrow Mindset*

And since I am going to step into a real adulthood, working life, no more a kid but a teacher, I think that is the time I should at least learn some basic make up. Not for everyday outing, but at least I could do it when I attend some parties or during some occasions. As people said, make up is considered kind of manners?

Yup, that is why I learnt.

Thanks to my girls for being my guru and never mean to teach and always want me to turn pretty.

I always feeling grateful when I think of it. xoxo

I am going to introduce my very basic cosmetic collections in this post.

But before that, let me just show you some vain photos of mine, with and without make up.

This is how I draw on my face during normal hanging out session.

Just eyebrow and lip balm.

This is my naked face.

As you can see, I got no much eyebrow and my lip colour is kinda pale.

I did my first time doing my own make up and it was under gurus' guiding, telling me what to do.

The only selfie I took that night.

This was the second time I did my own make up. And this time, there wasn't anybody guiding me and helping me anymore. It was such a mess!

But anyway, my friends praised me 'coz I just pick up the make up skill real fast and I can do a full make up on my face *including apply the fake eyelashes and double eyelid on my face* without help already. And the outcome isn't too bad. I am sometimes proud of myself. Maybe my calligraphy and drawing skill help? lol

Those compliments boost up my confidence.

:)

And now let me introduce what I own in my make up bag.

I think these are enough for a make up beginner.

First of all a hippo and a phone BB Cushion.

I picked BB Cushion because I read about a passage saying BB cushion can replace those primer, bb/cc cream, liquid foundation, concealer. BB Cushion has all-in-one function. I am not so sure about that but since I seldom make up, I just pick one to replace all and save some money up. XD

I am using Laneige Pore Control No. 13 True Beige.

I found this colour is a bit too bright for my skin when I first applied. But it blends well with my skin after a while. 

I picked this colour because that is the only colour on Hermo.

You're right, I bought from Hermo during sale at RM125+. A refill package came with it.  

I seldom use this. I wonder when could I finish this?

Second, Maybelline Big Eyes eye shadow.

I bought in Watson during sale. So not more than 40 bucks if not mistaken.

The colour is so nice and easy to match with whatever outfit. It suits beginners.

It is very easy to apply follow the guidance at the back of the box and a pair of BIG eyes is done. ★

Seldom use this too.

Mascara is also one of the items that I seldom apply.

My friend bought it during buy one free one sale, so it isn't more than 20 bucks.

Also this also comes from Maybelline.

Etude house bling bling eye stick #1 Shooting Star.

I applied this when I went for dinner to make my eyes looked shining and stunning.

The colour is quite obvious and I really like the shining effect.

Also came from Etude House Play 101 Pencil #2

There are a wide variety of colour to pick and it can be use as eyeliner, eyebrow pencil and so on depends on the colour you choose.

I picked this red one to use as blush. It can be use as lipstick also but I never use it as a lipstick.

I just draw few stripes on my cheek and use my fingers to gently rub it off to create the blusher effect.

My lipstick collections!!

Laneige two tone lipstick from Althea. Bought during buy one free one promotion so it is only at about rm40. Super duper cheap! My friend yc loves the effect so much. It really looks great on her lips. But I feel so-so because I am not very pro at applying it.

What I usually apply on my lips is the Sugar Tint Balm from Etude House! It really moisture your lips and the reddish-orange/ orangey-red is really nice and super natural. Love this a lot! 

Last but not least. Something I can't live without. Eyebrow pencil!!!

I watched a lot of makeup tutorials from Youtube, the Youtubers draw their eyebrow using eyebrow pencil, powder and colour mascara but I am a newbie I only use eyebrow pencil.

I tried Etude House colour gray brown before and it was quite good.

And I found this baby It's Skin eyebrow pencil from Hermo one day. It is cheaper than Etude House so it is worth a try. I am using #02 Dark Brown. I really love it and repurchase twins pack #02 and #04 Gray Brown at only RM19.90!!

I found this is better than E.H. as the colour is more obvious and the brush is softer. I personally find that it can be used longer compared to the E.H. one. Had been 3-4 months and still a long stick of it.

Strongly recommend this if you are searching a cheap and good eyebrow pencil.

So these are my collections and sharing.

I am still very new to make up world so my opinions are just opinions. Ha!

 See you next post! Ciao!

2015 achievements recap.

I really love 2015 because all the happenings are good one. I tried out a lot of new things. I achieved what I targeted in my academic and I graduated!! 

It had came to the last day of 2015 and I feel really reluctant to let it go.

Before the clock hits the first twelve midnight of 2016, let's check and see whether all my 2015 resolution had done successfully now.

1. I hope I could improve my teaching skill and get an A+ *guru cemerlang* in my last practicum. 

*To achieve this aint easy. I tried really hard in teaching and get along with my kids and get all my documents well prepared. I am really proud and thankful to achieve this. Yet I know I am not the best. Of course I am not the best. I am still a newbies in teaching career and all I need to do is to work hard afterwards.*

CHECKED!

2. Maintain my CGPA till the end of my course. 

*Maintain my result at last. Feeling thankful!! The result of the last semester wasn't really good actually but luckily it didn't affect my CGPA. Study hard for every single exam and work hard for every assignments throughout these 4 years of degree to achieve this. First class. Yay!*

CHECKED!

3. Brush up my 草书 and meet my calligraphy teacher more often. 

*My 草书 improved days by days, I can feel it, I can write it smoother, but it is not really great yet, so I gotta keep it up.*

4. 8-10 English novels. 

*Sad case only read 3 novels this year. Elanor and Park. To all the boys I've loved before. If I stay. Anyway those 3 books are great!! Read more than 10 Chinese novels this year thou.*

5. Less time in drama and social media.

*This seemed to be a mission impossible huh? I should really count how many drama I watch each year.*

6. Workout regularly.

*Workout more often this year and even went for Zumba. But my workout schedule wasn't regular, I workout when I feel like and relax when I feel lazy. I should really fix the timetable and workout regularly for a perfect body.*

 
7. Travel to new country using own money. 

*China isn't a new country for me. I had been to China twice and this was the third time. Somehow Beijing is a new spot for me. And most proud to say is I went using my own money. And also without my aunt's accompany.*

CHECKED!

8. Write 400-500 春联 for donation function. 

*So this had become a habit during each year holidays.

300 now. 2 more weeks holiday to achieve 500!*

CHECKED!

9. Blog more to record life.

*The amount of my blog post getting lesser compared to last year. I don't know why but I really write down my happenings. Maybe I should record down more and more.*

10. Braver, more independent, more sociable, more daring, expose myself more to others.

*I think I had turned into a better person this year. I am braver to share my ideas and expose myself to the others and so on after those practicum and internship experience and also my Beijing trip. Those are really good experience for me to become more sociable and more daring. I gotta keep it up!*

CHECKED!

Out of 10 resolutions, I hit 5. And the others are still in progress. 

Not too bad thou? HAHA

Hope it would be better next year.

By the way, there are some little achievements of me this year which I didn't expect before.

I learnt make up this year. lol

I had my first book written. Ha! Which is my thesis.

I held a calligraphy camp in a primary school where I carried out my internship.

And not to forget my first mural there.

Well, despite of I didn't attend calligraphy class and practice that often, I managed to be selected and enter the Sim Mow Yu countrywide calligraphy competition. Even though I didnt win at last but at least I managed to be picked as one of the 30 person in the Open Category. I should be proud right? At least I maintain my standard. This was the sixth and I never miss it from the first.

I guess I had recorded all my achievement in 2015. 

2015 had been really nice to me which I feel thankful.

Gonna upload my 2016 resolutions tomorrow! 

*Feeling stress 'coz one must be improving each year*

Hope 2016 is another great year for me.

*Pray hard for that*

:)

实习三有感

第三次实习，在醒华，我的母校。

这是我最后一次的实习。

期盼了这么久，就这样结束了。

要感谢的人太多了！

首先要感谢家人最大的支持！打仗的日子真的很难捱，但我的家人总是很挺我。有时候我脑洞大开，要做神经病的教具，他们都会帮我张罗，完成我的异想天开。最爱我的家人了。

再来就是要感谢的就是我的实习伙伴。因为某些因素，要不是他的成全，我是绝对不可能回到母校实习的。真的很感恩。

当然还有我学校老师和导师，对我们真的很好很好！每天来到学校都会发现桌子上又有“惊喜”。有时还有老师请吃早餐午餐。幸福到爆表！

不能忘记我的指导讲师~~~真的很幸运能被她指导。我觉得我up-level了因为她太认真太仔细地教导我们了！虽然很多时候呆到整5点才回家，眼睛要关了，但真的是有值回票价。

最后就是我最最最最最最爱得孩子们！！

他们是我最直接的观众。是他们陪着我面对每一场战役的。

他们的反应就是我努力的最大动力。

非常幸运在实习前夕被副校长通知得到教A班，让我收获这40个天使。

其实一开始我有窃喜能够教A班，但一秒之后我就后悔了。教A班真的非常压力！很担心自己拖垮他们的成绩，很担心他们比我还要聪明，结论就是压力。

果不其然，前两三个星期真的很辛苦。我抓不到孩子们要的东西，孩子们也搞不透我的需求。我教太深，扯太远，他们一脸无力；我教太浅，在课本游走，他们开始神游。

但渐渐地，我们熟悉了彼此的脚步，他们开始给足我反应，教起他们来也就比较不那么紧张了。

这班孩子真的很乖，基本上功课都能95%交上，也相当准时。

排队上讲堂也很快速，省了我不少时间和精力。

 我的3A。

 3A男子军。
有时候我会觉得我爱小男孩多过小女孩。他们比较活泼。
我很难抉择我最疼爱谁，我都好爱，每个都很想抱回家。

Benedict是超级可爱，超级天真，真的很可爱，很可爱，很可爱。连我实习伙伴都这么说。

很可爱有没有？有没有？

俐宏是我一开始没什么好感的学生，觉得他字很丑，功课也很随便，可是现在是我最舍不得的。班上的同学会说他笨，叫他白痴，可是我感觉得到他的用心，他有一点一点地进步的，只是我还来不及看到他进步很大就要走了，所以很舍不得他。只希望他一直乖乖地用功学习。

智信是我可爱的小副班长。
我最喜欢他的头发因为他一摇头头发就会转来转去，超可爱！他有时说话有点小大人，有时又有点没信心，最印象深刻是他说我的分数不是讲师给的，是他们给的，真是有道理。

跟我同姓的小家伙。或许是因为同姓所以挺喜欢他的。
一开始也是觉得他非常顽皮，可是后来觉得他非常机灵。上课相当专心，当然有时会讲一些废话，非常搞笑的一个小瓜。还有就是他很勇敢，每次同学一鼓动他就会参加绕口令和古诗比赛了，他的表现都会出乎我意料。同学们还做了一首童诗《叽喳的景涛》给他呢！可是他没生气因为都知道是喜欢他开他玩笑。

智漮也是很逗趣的一个瓜。他说话有些不是太顺，有时会卡着，我总要很注意地听。他上课时常会给我抛出我不会答的“十万个为什么”，让我有点尴尬。每次写话都说没内容，不会写，但我觉得他只是缺乏信心，没去发掘生活，所以我总会很耐心地听他把话说完，回答他。
大概这几只就是我比较熟悉的瓜吧~~~

还有佳胜、奕宪、传耀、証贤也跟我挺熟的。
奕宪也是因为跟我的好朋友育瑄名字太像也被我认为很有亲切感，上课非常专心的好宝宝。
佳胜也是另一个很爱发问的小瓜，传耀会帮我扛簿子等等，証贤的字体非常工整上课非常用心，总会准确回答而令我印象深刻。
*我一直觉得他们三只好像脸呢*

我班上大部分的女生都是乖宝宝，很安静的那一种。
与女生的合照被拍蒙了，所以就不放了。

 柔漪，凯霖，美珍，洁敏 是乖乖女代表
但最近会看到他们开始有举手 有表现 就觉得很欣慰。她们的字体可是班上字体工整代表呢！

当然班上也有一些处于时动时静的同学，上课时基本上是专心而且都热爱回答的。

 佩琪

雯洁

我班的小美女静媗和佳仪。

佳琪

老师在班上，尤其是讲师驾到时可是非常需要有学生支持和撑场的。
每次有他们的救驾就让我觉得好安心。

  芪恩
超有礼貌的女孩，也很喜欢和我聊天。总是会郑老师好，郑老师再见。

 小美女依琳
她非常可爱开朗，也是一个个性很好的小娃儿。
今天拿到她制作的卡片时都快哭了，她的卡片内容可媲美一篇作文了哦！超长！真的很贴心。每次看到我也是超高音地叫“郑老师”，加上招牌甜美笑容，我的心都融了。
 哎呀，忘了和她的好姐妹玟霖拍照啦~也是另一个我很喜欢的女娃！个性也很开朗，很有礼貌。

 最后登场有我班另一个小美女班长捷镁。
很乖巧的一个小女孩，做事效率挺好的，每次都会帮我扛簿子，可伶她了。上课也是得靠她的回答帮我撑场面。哈哈

其实班上的孩子哪有不疼的呢？
只是我都趁着下课和他们合照，不是全员到齐，有些孩子也不是很爱拍的感觉*老师更爱拍有点不好意思*因此无法都拍完。但他们的一举一动一颦一笑我会永远都记住的！

书生班也有搞怪时。

妖怪班也有乖巧时。
话说我对道德班的感情没有比3A班来得深，一个星期一个小时真的比较生疏。说真的，我没有把整班学生的名字背完。每一堂课进班，我几乎都是以泼妇形象度过，喊到撕心裂肺。他们不是坏，只是很活跃，很顽皮，很多话，还小，不会控制，所以三分钟我就要发“铁喉功”一次。静三分钟，再来......无限循环。
我本想每次给我骂，这班一定很讨厌我。
没想到！
他们今天给我好多礼物。我都吓了一跳呢！蓝笔，红笔，书签都有。
最大的礼物是他们很乖很乖地上完一堂课，这是我三个月以来最没有骂人的一次！
他们还很诚恳地跟我说“谢谢”。
孩子们的世界真的很幸福，很天真，很无邪，不记仇，没有怨，没有恨，多么美好！
*算是我的道德课没白上啦啦啦*

 熊孩子很难会一起看镜头的啦。
很可爱吧这些小男孩。平常给他们气死了啦~

 乖巧的女孩儿。

2B班可爱的小班长：欣霖和宇馨。
这两个小棉袄很乖，很会帮我管班，帮了我很大的忙。
每次来办公室都一直盯着我看，超可爱的。

学生送来的礼物：

 笔笔笔

玩偶公仔钥匙圈

 贩卖部最近在卖教师节卡片所以受到了不少。
最近不知道什么风，学生们都在用吸水管折这个花。
我学了很久才学会，都快给学生们笑死了。

令我感心的卡片和信息。

 俐宏，加油！老师相信你可以的！

 依琳写了满满整张的作文给我。非常用心！看了很感动~~~ 还有这丫头的画画也太好了吧！
:D

Benedict还用蜡笔画哦！长命百岁都出来了。哈哈。虽然错字一大堆，但是心意我收到啦~~~
还有很多很多很多很多卡片和字条，谢谢谢谢！

学生：老师你好残忍！
我：你们是没被实习老师教过吗？我们就是残忍，教完就要离开的，你不知道吗？
学生：我知道，可是你是对我们最好的，所以我们很伤心，你狠残忍。你一定要回来！
我：... T.T

你对孩子的真诚和好，孩子们是感受得到的。
这些都是我努力的动力。
孩子们，一起加油！祝福你们~
再见，很快再见！
= )