My kids.

It has been about one month I'm working here,

teaching this bunch of lovely kids.

Life has never been easy.

Each day, I am facing different circumstances and thinking of the suitable solutions.

I am still very new to teaching world.

The experience during practicum didn't really help much.

'Cuz it is totally different only teaching Chinese and being a class teacher who teaches Chinese.

Sometimes, I felt bad about myself.

I felt sorry for my kids.

I didn't really have enough time to prepare a perfect lesson for them.

I spent most of the time on discussing exercises and spoon-feeding them.

I have no time to actually get to know them, know their background and so on.

I would use some recess time to advice them and counsel them.

And I felt amazing when I saw their behavior get better the next lesson.

But the problem is I don't know how long would the effect stay?

I hope I could have better time management,

not to only teach them,

but also educate them.

That's not easy but that's what I am trying to do now.

I scare I might rotten their discipline recently.

I felt disappointed on myself when I found my scolding and yelling getting more,

and the noise getting louder.

I felt sad when I saw the amount of books that submit to me getting lesser,

and the cross I marked getting more.

I wondered which step I had gone wrong.

I just don't feel like spoon-feeding them 100% before they hand up their exercises to me.

But perhaps my guidance wasn't enough for them to get their work done.

I am still trying different style of teaching.

I am still finding my way.

 To be their best class teacher,

their mom 

and their most reliable person in school.

I really love my class and my kids.

I hope I could change them a better person.

And I'm trying hard.

*Too short, it is hard to find me.*

Photo on Chap-Goh-Meh, the last day of CNY.

We were having a small party in class.

The time was short, the session was quite messy, but it was fun. 

We ate biscuits and we sang CNY songs together.

That's little something that I would like to record down here.

I felt really sweeeeeeeet when my kids called me 'god-mom'.

That's just a joke but I really appreciate them calling me like that. That made our teacher-students relation getting closer.

I felt really touched when they remembered I mentioned that I love fried crab stick and they gave it to me, keep asking me to have one.

最近，

我一直在灌输他们的是，

我不打他们，也不想骂他们，不是因为什么，

而是因为我尊重他们。

我希望他们也会因此而尊重我。

学会“尊重”，感觉会解决很多问题。

互相尊重可以避免班上不同种族而引起的误会。

同理心会让他们学习了解他人，体谅他人。

结论，

我不希望他们因为我凶，害怕我而变乖，

我希望的是，他们因为敬我，爱我而变听话，变好学。

I don't really know what's the point I'm typing this? 

Just some feelings.

Just feel like typing.

I hope there are more sweet things among us happen in my life.

xoxo