when i wake up this morning,i thought i was having a nightmare yesterday
but after a while, i can confirm that that is a TRUTH! a CRUEL truth in my life
i NEVER think of i'll stop my friendship with her so easily.
NOW only i realise no friend can be trusted and nobody are worth to be trust. When u trust someone, u'll expect higher, and u'll get hurt =(
she is my best friend and best sister (if u could read this, dont puke and laugh at me like him, bcz i TRULY treat u as my sister),we experienced many things, facing exam fever together, studying together and encouraging each other. Those memories brighten and enriched my schooling life because as i know,no matter how tough is the task,we'll be facing it together. We cried together when exam suck! we laughed together when getting flying-colours-result! we pakat to burn the midnight oil together in the raya holidays before the F4 year end exam.we even called each other to make the final revision at 1sth pm before the paper of Chemistry. Do you still remember it?
I know maybe if u see this post,u'll feel i m so childish and silly,writing all those past memories and live in past. But, u know i m also childish.
I really hurt and cried my heart out after that call =X
i really GET HURT when u said i'm fake! when you said you never trust me! when you said we're having different gang of friends and different lifestyle now! when you said since you realised we talked bad about you, you already dont think we're your friends.
At first i dont know how to say let the relationship end,i feel reluctant to say and i DO HOPE you can say sth that calm me down, tell me we can still be good sista' although i guess it ll be a rare chance. BUT i never think of you will say such CRUEL thing =X
IT HURTS!
i know you are not worth for me to cry for you ady
you will never understand me as you used to do.
no matter you admit it onot, what i could say is you had changed TOTALLY =(
thanks for bringing me a lot of best memories and i wouldnt get such good result without your help and encouraging! =)
what i hope now is you can study hard and fulfill your ambition!
I LOVE YOU,WY JIE JIE~
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Friday, August 27, 2010
阿公，我爱你
阿公我爱你~
你离开我已经一年半了。
你还好么？
有时我担心，我害怕，对你的印象会越来越模糊~
有时我真的觉得我已经习惯没有你的日子~
可是你重视会不经意地提醒我，你曾经在我生命中留下的痕迹。
阿公，我爱你~
每次我换新的读书环境你都回来看我，我都感觉得到~
在KMPP时你也到我房间来看我，虽然很模糊，但我知道你来了~
今天mummy说你给了我一个铜板~
我很惊讶！=O
原来很多东西都是冥冥之中的~法会上，师父丢铜板的时候，铜板滚到了二姑身边，那是阿公给我的铜板！
听着，我就哭了~
我真的好想念阿公~
想到你之前跟我说的每句话，我们谈话的内容是那么的少，我好后悔！我们应该聊更多的，聊你来南洋的故事，聊你的生平，可是我却没有过~甚至还一直埋怨你不喜欢我，重男轻女，只疼弟弟~TT TT
所以你每次切梨给我吃，问我吃饱没，我总会觉得特别窝心因为你有发现我的存在~
还有你唯一一次称赞我‘乖’，我会永远记得！
你那简单的一个字，肯定了我，我开心了好久~直到现在想起还是会露出微笑=)
虽然我每次答应你会乖乖的，不再惹长辈生气都没做到，对不起~希望你可以继续保佑我
我知道你会的！
因为你一定知道我对你的爱藏在不言中，我相信我现在心想什么你都会明白~
阿公我爱你！！
我会当你的乖孙女~
继续考好好
拿多多奖
我相信你一定看得到的！
我哭了~
ps:
今天发现原来那么多人疼爱我，有阿公，家人，我的好姐妹们，kor-kor~
我好幸福！
最喜欢被人肯定我是好朋友的时候了~好爱好爱你们啊~
希望快点看完dear PO 在 fb 的video,据说很感动呢~哈！xD
所以就算在这里没有知己也没关系,因为你们给我的爱就足以成为我的后盾，让我继续走下去。
每次想到你们你们，就觉得自己充满力量！
加油~HWAITING!! =D
你离开我已经一年半了。
你还好么？
有时我担心，我害怕，对你的印象会越来越模糊~
有时我真的觉得我已经习惯没有你的日子~
可是你重视会不经意地提醒我，你曾经在我生命中留下的痕迹。
阿公，我爱你~
每次我换新的读书环境你都回来看我，我都感觉得到~
在KMPP时你也到我房间来看我，虽然很模糊，但我知道你来了~
今天mummy说你给了我一个铜板~
我很惊讶！=O
原来很多东西都是冥冥之中的~法会上，师父丢铜板的时候，铜板滚到了二姑身边，那是阿公给我的铜板！
听着，我就哭了~
我真的好想念阿公~
想到你之前跟我说的每句话，我们谈话的内容是那么的少，我好后悔！我们应该聊更多的，聊你来南洋的故事，聊你的生平，可是我却没有过~甚至还一直埋怨你不喜欢我，重男轻女，只疼弟弟~TT TT
所以你每次切梨给我吃，问我吃饱没，我总会觉得特别窝心因为你有发现我的存在~
还有你唯一一次称赞我‘乖’，我会永远记得！
你那简单的一个字，肯定了我，我开心了好久~直到现在想起还是会露出微笑=)
虽然我每次答应你会乖乖的，不再惹长辈生气都没做到，对不起~希望你可以继续保佑我
我知道你会的！
因为你一定知道我对你的爱藏在不言中，我相信我现在心想什么你都会明白~
阿公我爱你！！
我会当你的乖孙女~
继续考好好
拿多多奖
我相信你一定看得到的！
我哭了~
ps:
今天发现原来那么多人疼爱我，有阿公，家人，我的好姐妹们，kor-kor~
我好幸福！
最喜欢被人肯定我是好朋友的时候了~好爱好爱你们啊~
希望快点看完dear PO 在 fb 的video,据说很感动呢~哈！xD
所以就算在这里没有知己也没关系,因为你们给我的爱就足以成为我的后盾，让我继续走下去。
每次想到你们你们，就觉得自己充满力量！
加油~HWAITING!! =D
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
a FUCKING TIRED day~
tonnes of assignents awaiting for me =X
2-3 sets of assignments needed to be submitted on the coming study week!!
chinese-1, basic mathematics on Monday and TMK assignments on Thursday
luckily the deadline of Kemahiran Belajar assignment is postponed,hoorays xD
somehow,I was still rushing for my chinese-1 assignment yesterday night..
finding the background of writing of <西游记-Journey to the West>(What my friend translated it,LoL =P)
We successfully done it and we just realised it was already 12sth AM!!! we had been doing it for a whole night...of course,we chitchat,laughed and ate lots of junkfood on the way completing this DULL project.WE girls had finished half packet of corn-fleaks,half-tupperware of HONEY STARs,1 packet of chipmores and so and so...thx to NGIEW's stomach, my tupperware finally get empty after 2 months filling with the honey stars...LOL (p/s:she is really a eating monster,all of us scared by the ability of her stomach to keep food =X)
finally i was ready to sleep at 1AM Z.z
and......
my friend called me and awaked me because of the stupid fire practise (火警演习) which held at abt 2.30am~I WAS TOTALLY IN BLURRRR~i didnt even hear the alarm!!! my roomate also~so WE poor girls 'escaped' from our room and realised our neighbours had escaped from the FIRE earlier.I wondered why both of us which means 2 pairs of ears didnt hear the alarm and the noise =.="
if it was really a FIRE, i think i had gone to paradise >.<""
thanks god it was JUST a practise~
we gathered at the kawasan lapang and switched to the tapak perhimpunan then. IT WAS 3AM!! OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG =O
we are asked to listen to the taklimat given by the ahli bomba on the dark scary 16th of July(in chinese calendar). I was trembling like a leaf and my nose sneezing terribly.The atmosphere was sooooo cold =S
we are finally dismissed at 4AM!! and everybody was like a PANDA @.@
my eyes could hardly open this morning...
OMG
rushing for moral assignment now due to the checking by en. bakir tomorrow...
bye earthlings <3
2-3 sets of assignments needed to be submitted on the coming study week!!
chinese-1, basic mathematics on Monday and TMK assignments on Thursday
luckily the deadline of Kemahiran Belajar assignment is postponed,hoorays xD
somehow,I was still rushing for my chinese-1 assignment yesterday night..
finding the background of writing of <西游记-Journey to the West>(What my friend translated it,LoL =P)
We successfully done it and we just realised it was already 12sth AM!!! we had been doing it for a whole night...of course,we chitchat,laughed and ate lots of junkfood on the way completing this DULL project.WE girls had finished half packet of corn-fleaks,half-tupperware of HONEY STARs,1 packet of chipmores and so and so...thx to NGIEW's stomach, my tupperware finally get empty after 2 months filling with the honey stars...LOL (p/s:she is really a eating monster,all of us scared by the ability of her stomach to keep food =X)
finally i was ready to sleep at 1AM Z.z
and......
my friend called me and awaked me because of the stupid fire practise (火警演习) which held at abt 2.30am~I WAS TOTALLY IN BLURRRR~i didnt even hear the alarm!!! my roomate also~so WE poor girls 'escaped' from our room and realised our neighbours had escaped from the FIRE earlier.I wondered why both of us which means 2 pairs of ears didnt hear the alarm and the noise =.="
if it was really a FIRE, i think i had gone to paradise >.<""
thanks god it was JUST a practise~
we gathered at the kawasan lapang and switched to the tapak perhimpunan then. IT WAS 3AM!! OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG =O
we are asked to listen to the taklimat given by the ahli bomba on the dark scary 16th of July(in chinese calendar). I was trembling like a leaf and my nose sneezing terribly.The atmosphere was sooooo cold =S
we are finally dismissed at 4AM!! and everybody was like a PANDA @.@
my eyes could hardly open this morning...
OMG
rushing for moral assignment now due to the checking by en. bakir tomorrow...
bye earthlings <3
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
stop emo,cheer up girl!!
i realised that my posts recently are a sad one~
i dont want to be that emo, but i just couldnt control it...
i dont know what's the meaning of my life
i dont know who are the friends i can rely on now
i feel sad most probably is because i have no gang,no my own members here...
i miss the days with my dear friends in secondary school
i miss thc and 10,we used to rumour a lot last time
i belongs to our own NN company^^
i miss the days with min min and wen wen in kmpp too
i miss the days we share our happiness and worries last time~
i belongs to our little 3 girls' group =)
NOW?
i belongs to no one =(
i need a shoulders to cry on
i need ears to listen to my heart
p/s:
-thanks to kor kor,at least i still got u to comfort me and give me advice recently
-thanks to dearest yy~always leave touching comments to cheer me up and encourage me..you're such a sweet girl..do MISS u alot,dear <3
-thanks to nies,chat with me when both of us are free~
thanks to my friends who concern me, maybe i dont know...but due to support from u all,i'll try my BEST to continue wearing my smiley face (fake mask),try my BEST to study hard no matter how tired and lazy i'm..
do hope we meet each others soon in holidays~
i dont want to be that emo, but i just couldnt control it...
i dont know what's the meaning of my life
i dont know who are the friends i can rely on now
i feel sad most probably is because i have no gang,no my own members here...
i miss the days with my dear friends in secondary school
i miss thc and 10,we used to rumour a lot last time
i belongs to our own NN company^^
i miss the days with min min and wen wen in kmpp too
i miss the days we share our happiness and worries last time~
i belongs to our little 3 girls' group =)
NOW?
i belongs to no one =(
i need a shoulders to cry on
i need ears to listen to my heart
p/s:
-thanks to kor kor,at least i still got u to comfort me and give me advice recently
-thanks to dearest yy~always leave touching comments to cheer me up and encourage me..you're such a sweet girl..do MISS u alot,dear <3
-thanks to nies,chat with me when both of us are free~
thanks to my friends who concern me, maybe i dont know...but due to support from u all,i'll try my BEST to continue wearing my smiley face (fake mask),try my BEST to study hard no matter how tired and lazy i'm..
do hope we meet each others soon in holidays~
Saturday, August 21, 2010
is it a time for me to back to reality?
20/08/2010
my AINO phone had been put into the pocket of my tracksuit
and i had accidentally throw it into the water...
and this stupid silly action made my handphone GONE~
my first thought is :"well, not a big deal! I saved my photo n songs in my pc ady~"
my second thought IS : OMG!!!! MY MSG AND MY CONTACT LIST~~~~~~"
well,i really dont mind my phone~
but i really treasure those msgs...
because the things would never be the same again~
because i would NEVER receive the same msg again...
they're really mean to me
and i always read them again and again when i'm free
and think of my past days
and now?
the only connection and the little secret had gone...
from the first day we know until now, all the things had GONE
speechless,my tears couldnt flow out =X
this is fate.
maybe this is the time i should back to the reality
and no more rely on those virtual msg
but i really SAD
how much i wish i could wake up from this nightmare
how much i wish my msg back
how much i wish for miracle
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
my AINO phone had been put into the pocket of my tracksuit
and i had accidentally throw it into the water...
and this stupid silly action made my handphone GONE~
my first thought is :"well, not a big deal! I saved my photo n songs in my pc ady~"
my second thought IS : OMG!!!! MY MSG AND MY CONTACT LIST~~~~~~"
well,i really dont mind my phone~
but i really treasure those msgs...
because the things would never be the same again~
because i would NEVER receive the same msg again...
they're really mean to me
and i always read them again and again when i'm free
and think of my past days
and now?
the only connection and the little secret had gone...
from the first day we know until now, all the things had GONE
speechless,my tears couldnt flow out =X
this is fate.
maybe this is the time i should back to the reality
and no more rely on those virtual msg
but i really SAD
how much i wish i could wake up from this nightmare
how much i wish my msg back
how much i wish for miracle
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Sunday, August 15, 2010
早上起床看了《千与千寻》
室友不在，套上耳机，慢慢入戏
开始的时候，觉得好可怕~阴森森的
特别是被千寻的父母变成猪的那一幕吓到了，说不出的震撼！=X
男主角一出场救了千寻，帅呆了！
他默默地帮着千寻~
直到他后来受伤了，真的好可怜~真担心白龙真的会死掉~
后来千寻父母的魔法解开了，可以和父母团聚，回到现实 =D
可是一想到他就得跟白龙分开了~好伤心~心碎 =(
他们记起了一切，他们喜欢着对方，可是。。。
他们俩还会遇见吗在人类的世界？
他们还会记得对方吗再相逢的时候？
唉~爱情~
ps:看戏时被突然进房的朋友连续吓了两次！无言~
带着耳机，谁懂发生什么事嘛~就被无端端地吓倒。。我已经觉得这卡通很可怕了，还在很可怕的时候被吓两次！！天哪~~~
pps:做完了tmk assignment,hope there is nth wrong -/\-
ppps:tired and damn boring!! Z.z
室友不在，套上耳机，慢慢入戏
开始的时候，觉得好可怕~阴森森的
特别是被千寻的父母变成猪的那一幕吓到了，说不出的震撼！=X
男主角一出场救了千寻，帅呆了！
他默默地帮着千寻~
直到他后来受伤了，真的好可怜~真担心白龙真的会死掉~
后来千寻父母的魔法解开了，可以和父母团聚，回到现实 =D
可是一想到他就得跟白龙分开了~好伤心~心碎 =(
他们记起了一切，他们喜欢着对方，可是。。。
他们俩还会遇见吗在人类的世界？
他们还会记得对方吗再相逢的时候？
唉~爱情~
ps:看戏时被突然进房的朋友连续吓了两次！无言~
带着耳机，谁懂发生什么事嘛~就被无端端地吓倒。。我已经觉得这卡通很可怕了，还在很可怕的时候被吓两次！！天哪~~~
pps:做完了tmk assignment,hope there is nth wrong -/\-
ppps:tired and damn boring!! Z.z
friends~
I felt so happy when my kmpp friends called me just now.
Although I couldnt join them, I feel satisfy to know they enjoy their trip very much~
I was overwhelmed with happiness when I heard their voice and talked a lot with them...I havent be forgotten so far...
I even shed a tear at last because of what they said
I clearly know that I had chosen this way and I have to be determined to continue it.
I really hope that we would meet each other again because I leave when our friendship increasing and I feel so bad to miss out so many great memories of u all~ PLS,GOD! I would like to do anything just to meet them and have fun with them even a short period,PLS~ -/\-
I was adviced by my maktab friend. What she said really wake me up from my silly dream...
'There would never have an everlasting frienship!'
"Nobody is neglecting and memulaukan u,so pls stop being sensitive."
I becoming sadder when heard all this words. They do hurt me. =X
Is it impossible to have everlasting friendship?
I do not believe this statement and I reject to believe it too.
I am still contacting my primary and secondary school friends although it had been more than 6 years we know each other. I do believe that we will continue our friendship in the future.
Dear friends,
prove them that this cruel statement is WRONG!!
A frienship can last long, it is just depends on how the person treats this relationship, sincerely making friends or the opposite.
and...I seriously dont like people treat me cold.
Ya,I am very sensitive and easy to get curious.
I scared being abandoned, perhaps this is because my primary school friends once disliked me and talking bad about me at my back and make me feel not confident, scare of being neglected as well.
Stress to this point, I really feel not confident about myself in studies and physical appearance.
Only when talk about calligraphy, I feel very confident but not to others.
I am really odd...
always harbour a silly dream.
pls prove to me and others, we will be friends forever ^^
although it is just merely one month plus, I sincerely put my love into it.
and...
also to my pri and sec friends, you all had accompanied me for so many incidents and truly understand me, sure I'll grab the free time to hang out with you guys~
distance make the heart grow fonder
LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS I KNOW <3
prove this statement,we will be FRIENDS FOREVER!!
muaksssss....
Although I couldnt join them, I feel satisfy to know they enjoy their trip very much~
I was overwhelmed with happiness when I heard their voice and talked a lot with them...I havent be forgotten so far...
I even shed a tear at last because of what they said
I clearly know that I had chosen this way and I have to be determined to continue it.
I really hope that we would meet each other again because I leave when our friendship increasing and I feel so bad to miss out so many great memories of u all~ PLS,GOD! I would like to do anything just to meet them and have fun with them even a short period,PLS~ -/\-
I was adviced by my maktab friend. What she said really wake me up from my silly dream...
'There would never have an everlasting frienship!'
"Nobody is neglecting and memulaukan u,so pls stop being sensitive."
I becoming sadder when heard all this words. They do hurt me. =X
Is it impossible to have everlasting friendship?
I do not believe this statement and I reject to believe it too.
I am still contacting my primary and secondary school friends although it had been more than 6 years we know each other. I do believe that we will continue our friendship in the future.
Dear friends,
prove them that this cruel statement is WRONG!!
A frienship can last long, it is just depends on how the person treats this relationship, sincerely making friends or the opposite.
and...I seriously dont like people treat me cold.
Ya,I am very sensitive and easy to get curious.
I scared being abandoned, perhaps this is because my primary school friends once disliked me and talking bad about me at my back and make me feel not confident, scare of being neglected as well.
Stress to this point, I really feel not confident about myself in studies and physical appearance.
Only when talk about calligraphy, I feel very confident but not to others.
I am really odd...
always harbour a silly dream.
pls prove to me and others, we will be friends forever ^^
although it is just merely one month plus, I sincerely put my love into it.
and...
also to my pri and sec friends, you all had accompanied me for so many incidents and truly understand me, sure I'll grab the free time to hang out with you guys~
distance make the heart grow fonder
LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS I KNOW <3
prove this statement,we will be FRIENDS FOREVER!!
muaksssss....
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
VRY FULL
puasa starts!
and i am eating my maggie mee and mushroom soup for the second days~
it is kinda delicious!!! LOVE THE TASTE~yum yum <3
but back to reality....
it is kinda unhealthy TOO!!
it contains of SO DAMN LOTS of ajinomoto and FATS
but no choice...
i feel lazy to walk to cafe and order food from outside
that's the result by.....
eating UNHEALTHY food~
tomorrow onwards i'll order food and hope wont realised by the block warden
if not, my dinner ll be a BIG PROBLEM!!!>.<
but i should not finish every sets of meal
because
it'll be a BIG burden for my stomach =(
my friend did some salad for us and it is GREAT!!
my dinner today is somehow now considered balance...
FAT,protein,carbohydrate,minerals,fibre,water and vitamin!!
VRY VRY VRY FULL now~
gonna be fat TT TT
O~M~GOSH
and i am eating my maggie mee and mushroom soup for the second days~
it is kinda delicious!!! LOVE THE TASTE~yum yum <3
but back to reality....
it is kinda unhealthy TOO!!
it contains of SO DAMN LOTS of ajinomoto and FATS
but no choice...
i feel lazy to walk to cafe and order food from outside
that's the result by.....
eating UNHEALTHY food~
tomorrow onwards i'll order food and hope wont realised by the block warden
if not, my dinner ll be a BIG PROBLEM!!!>.<
but i should not finish every sets of meal
because
it'll be a BIG burden for my stomach =(
my friend did some salad for us and it is GREAT!!
my dinner today is somehow now considered balance...
FAT,protein,carbohydrate,minerals,fibre,water and vitamin!!
VRY VRY VRY FULL now~
gonna be fat TT TT
O~M~GOSH
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
fed up with some kepo fellow~
i want to express my feeling on fb actually but i scare gt misunderstood by some people...
i want to say that there is always some different between friends and classmates..
we got the right to choose our own friends but unfortunately we are not given the same power to choose our classmates.
a classmate can always turned to be our friend,good friend and even soul mate.
but before this things happen,a classmate is just a classmate.
I wrote wateva thingy in my status is for my friends to know more about my recent life,for MY FRIeNDS to leave their comments,to see how my FrIENDs care about me.Of course,i do need care and love from my friends...but pls pay attention!is MY FRIEnds,not classmates!!!!!!
i want to say that there is always some different between friends and classmates..
we got the right to choose our own friends but unfortunately we are not given the same power to choose our classmates.
a classmate can always turned to be our friend,good friend and even soul mate.
but before this things happen,a classmate is just a classmate.
I wrote wateva thingy in my status is for my friends to know more about my recent life,for MY FRIeNDS to leave their comments,to see how my FrIENDs care about me.Of course,i do need care and love from my friends...but pls pay attention!is MY FRIEnds,not classmates!!!!!!
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