try my best to be happy

i smile
until my lips are nearly break
i laugh
until my stomach is painful
but you will never see my 'true' happiness...

i smile because i need to let people think that i am happy
i laugh because i need to do so at that particular moment

the jokes from my friends are really funny
and i have a good laugh
but after a while
the smile disappear
however
i am really happy with all of you
SERIOUS!

but.......
when i am alone
i still cant stop crying

you may ask me that why i am sad and still cant go out from sadness
but I JUST CANT
hope that the time can wash all my depress

sorry dear wy,
i just cant be happy
but i am really all right with you all
dont worry
i am ok de
muaksssss :D

大小声。减肥篇

大声告诉自己
肥胖是笨拙，丑陋，难看

小声告诉自己
发胖不是罪，是福气

大声是宣言
小声是安慰

把宣言调低声量
让安慰趁机发声
声调适量
就能瘦身

大小声。哀愁篇

大声地在白昼。笑

小声地在黑夜。哭

想念可以大声高歌

也能小声吊唁

习惯小声哭泣的我
却怎么也学不会

把声量调中

只能躲在被窝里

继续

听着

滴滴答答流水声

残忍的思念

思念阿公的忧伤
好比淡淡的菊花香

午夜梦回
脸上的泪
干了又湿
湿了又干

梦醒时分
告诉自已死亡是场梦
又残忍地
否定了自己

posting in school...

i am writing this post in school!!
haha...it's REAL!!serious and no kiddin XP
now is history period and i am in makmal computer
after my teacher finished teaching,she lets us to online!!
DAMN GOOD HER ^^
so i am now to post this.....
because i am boring so...i am HERE lo....LOLZ :D
going to post some chinese poems later after back home
and perhaps i can finish my eng presentation within this 2 weeks and i am able to post my presentation here and let you all have a good laugh!!
HAAHHAHAHAH

bubye~~~~~~~~~~

F**K-ing mood =C

Feeling terrible recently
U cant really understand what is inside my mind if u only read this
C? u are not really understand me
Koz i always wear a radiant smile
I am blank and sad and down and depress and...
Nobody know me
God know


Monthly test is coming
Oh my god...no preparation had been done
Oh my god...i dont want to lose
D success is belongs to me!

=C ? nonononono
should be =D

competition in makhota parade

i took part in competition in makhota parade today morning...

the calligrapher wrote there again!!

it is not easy to be a calligrapher!!!!!

write word like this big is very difficult :/

see? a bull!!nice drawing ^^

all of the works here is mainly about remembering dato sim mow yu...

i miss him sooooo much!!

every year he will attend in this competiton and talk a lot and write for us to see....

but now he had gone and will never here again.....deep sigh!!

i got NO2 again!!!but still feeling happy XD XD

until now,i had earn RM780 in all the competitions i had taken part!!

HOORAY ^^
try harder to get better XP XP

fated~~~

she knows tuition teacher from my other friends
luckily that girl not my buddies...they didnt betray me
is another stupid fellow!!!
so kepo!!busybody!!!!!!!!sucks her~~~ :C
she didnt ask her
why she tells her???
she gains no benifit but destroy me only!!!!!!
DAMN HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



i know that my speaking and thinking are childish!!
how can i avoid one to attend tution class?
how can i stop one from winning me?
it can only blame my selfishness and kiasu mind!!

NO MATTER HOW!!!!
I WANT TO TOP MY CLASS!!!
tell me how to do,readers with excellent result?

a bad girl

i am a bad girl...
no doubt,
the bad girl is me........


i am a bad girl with a selfish mind
i hate people who compete with me
this is because i am lack of confidence and not intelligent at all
so,
i scared people will be better than me
i asked them dont introduce tuition to her
i am annoyed by her conscientious
i am seethed with hatred when see her hardworking behavior
i am pretending to be a normal student in class
i try to tell her that i am stupid


i know my behavior and thinking are very very wrong
but.......
i am not confident

how?
save me from being a green eye monster!!

cute!!

just received this from my friend-li lin...very cute!!
this little creature is damn cute!!!!!keep on laughing and smiling ^^ he is a 5-month-old baby,who my dad babysits him.....CUTE

gong-xi gong-xi

competition in malacca

i went to calligraphy competition in malacca yesterday afternoon...

the surrounding there was quite solemn and not as happy as normal,before the competition started,we were asked to stand still andexpress our condolence for dato sim mow yu...i planned to send my respect to him,but i cant go because my ah gong haven reach 49 days and there is a pantang.......

before competition started,all the famous calligrapher wrote!

this is mr foo yong gang...this competition is under his name..he donated RM5000 for the use of this competition!so generous XD

this is what he had drawn...bamboo!!

this is the one written by a calligrapher from China...he had create this words by using the name of 'yong gang'...so talented!!

this is drawn by mr lim rong guang...very cute and artistic!!!!!

can you see a boy sit on the cow??

this is mr foo yong jie(mr foo yong gang's brother)..he also drew a cow!

this is the one he had drawn....nice isnt it?

SMALL CALLIGRAPHY EXHIBITION IN MY BLOG

you should feel happy to see all this because they are all produced by very famous and talented calligrapher from KL,singapore and even china..and all of this can be sell in damn high price!!!!!

this was written by mr foo yong guang last year

and this was written by dato sim mow yu last year at the age of 96!!he supported every activity and still took part in this competition last year...but unfortunately now,he had gone and will never present in the activity again....~.~ however,his semangat will also be with us!!we must also learn his behaviour to be determined,strong,friendly and so on......

after i had finished written mine...i went outside and strolled there...so many people,very difficult to move!! =.=" and i even met my teacher--miss tai there!!omg...m'sia is toooo small!!! :X
this lady is sooo praise-worthy!!can you see how she write??she has no hand!!she only use her elbow to write and her calligraphy is so nice!!*clap*

after about 1 1/2 hours,finally the result came out!!i had been waited for so long!!

i got 2nd in this competition!!!it is a big jump for me as i used to get only 3rd in malacca de competiton!!and now,i am able to get 2nd prize!!!i am on cloud nine not because of this 2nd prize and money given only,the reason that made me damn high spirits is my calligraphy teacher praised me in front of everyone!!

he said my writting is very big and got my own style!and mr foo yong gang admire my writting and asked who am i..and my teacher answered them i am a 'little girl'...damn happy!!overwhelmed with joy that they admired my writting!!!!hahahahah XD XD i had been waiting this for so long!!hooray!!cheers!! ^^ i will try my best in the future not to let my teacher down!!

heheh^^ can you see me?i am so 'tiny' in this picture...not tiny,should say short!!!

i am so short!!!sob *blushed*

the guy on my right is the champion and the guy on my left is the one who always top in competition!!happy that i am now same level with him and pernah win him!!!and the one with blue shirt and hold the mic is my calligraphy teacher!

on the way home...take the photo of this menara!i am not dare to sit there as it is quite high and the ticket for this is expensive!not worth at all =.='''

that all for tonight's journey~~~

another post for today

my school held the anually merentas desa today
so tired to run!!
BUT I STILL RUN!!try my best in the last year,aza aza!!GAMBATEH! ^^

i wanna follow my friends who can run very fast one,but my condition not allow me to do so...my heart is so painful..and i am not determined enough! poor girl who can give up easily~~
then i run alone....and along the journey,i met vo fern,sze wen,daniel,yuan yuan.....yuan even took the photograph of me.!omg,sure very ugly one!!my sweat pour down like dunno what and my hair is like xiao za bo! =.="

finally,i arrived!!
i got no 43!!!quite a big jump for me ady(last year i think i got 60)
yi ling got no11(crazy de!!)
heng chen got 20sth(also another crazy fellow!)
my seniors of taekwando got no2 and 3(lagi gila!!)
when they heard of my result,they think it is good enough FOR ME!!i dont bother about how true their comments about my result,whether comfort me or what,i still felt relief! XP

appreciate every moments

if we must die one day,then why we are born??

early in the morning,when i arrived school...
heng chen told me a BAD NEWS!!


dato sim mow yu had passed away...what a bad news for me!!
my tears nearlly flowed down when i heard this news!!*heart-broken*...i stunned and astonished there for about 5 sec and kept on asking whether the news is correct or not...

he is one of my idol....he is hero for our chinese society!he fought for the authority of chinese and even entered the prison in the age of 70sth due to this!!can you imagine how terrible in the prison at the age of 70sth...he thought of kill himself but he did not done this...

last two years.i even participated his 95-years-old birthday celebration and all of us hope that we can take part in his 100-years old birthday celebration,but unfortunely......it will never happen!!!i really felt sad!u know??

his calligraphy also very very good!!and made me admire soooo much!!he is able to writhe very huge words last year....but.......and also,he was a strong man!he can give a speech for more than 30mins.....last year during my senior's calligraphy exhibition,he present there and can walk with tongkat still....who knows?here(http://appreciate-every-moments.blogspot.com/2008/08/calligraphy-exhibition.html)

everything is just happen too fast,like death of my dearest grandpa......
nobody thought of that..............
and,this year like sooooo many old people past away...really!!you just open the newspaper and see...why??
why so many elderly were brought away?
isit we the young generation are not enough fillial or what??

i learn that we MUST appreciate the moment we are having now!!greet our family members and help them to do chores willingly,without complaining and moaning.....to prevent regret..because as sth happen,the time will never rewind back again no matter how loud we cry...this are all the value i learnt after my ah gong passed away...

i treat him not very very good,i didnt accompany to talk...and now,i got no chance ady..what i can do now is only treat my other family members better to retrieve the regret!

i will try my best to be the good good girl!!! \^v^//

appreciate every moments