so TIRED recently~~

i m so tired recently..since i study in form 4..
i looking 4ward 4 d form 4 lesson last year,but now..i felt so regret about my hope..
there is a lot of homework..make me feel DIZZY~~
now i hate form 4..
teachers all r devil!!everyday give a lot of homework..they r so devilish!n nearly make me go crazy..
3veryday i feel sad..felling lazy..unwilling 2 go school..but i CAN'T!!i m being forced!
dun noe y,but by naturally..i really lost my interest in scholing,learning,everything..
i decided 2 b hardworking but juz feeling lazy..
aiyo,now typing dis post i oso dun noe wat i m trying 2 say..d sequence is odd,rite?readers~~
anyway.........
i will try my BEST 2 make me ALIVE again!perhaps i can do it..hoping~

I BELIEVE,I CAN!!

LATIHAN SUKAN again~~

HEADACHE!!

it is latihan sukan again..

d sun shone mercilessly...

n i got a badly HEADACHE!!

pt de me!!sob sob~~

assembly!!

monday..yes!wat will d 1st thing dat comes 2 ur mind?
4 me!it is d LAME ASSEMBLY!!
i really HATED assembly!!
bcoz d teachers like 2 talk sth boring on d stage!arent they noe dat we are not paying attention(mayb i should change 'we' 2 'I')
but my school assembly seem different 2day!
hoorey!it is not 4 d teachers 2 NAG-NAG-NAG agian on d stage..but STUDENT!!(ocoz not me)
d students' speech are SHORT!i thought,perhaps!so nice then we can go back class earlier!
but really life is not a bed of roses,as i daydream of my short short assembly..hehe..sth crossed my mind!suddenly hear ppl shout wat stand still..o wat..(i din go kawat so not 100%understand,juz ikut others ppl's action lo)
we hv 2 stand still even when d time students talk..omg!!terrible,man!
d most exaggerated thing IS!!marching when we move..i duno my descrition ritye o not bt sth like dat la..
my new principal is really SERIOUS!n PARTICULAR!even gathering..
bt i oso nodat not new brooms sweep clean loo..really hope dat he can bring my school 2 a really BEST school!in academic n disipline!!
haha=D

so D-O-W-N ! !

i m so low-spirits recently..NOT SAD bt crazy!!
i think dat i m really crazy..bcoz i can b exhilarated sometime,bt oso extremely depress suddenly!!as i say..
my wire is connect wrongly!!
i think dat is d best description liao..
n i would like 2 continue dis post in chinese so dat i can really describe my moody feel..

没错,我近来心情真的很烂很烂..套句阿星说的话:简直惨到破表!!
从开学以来我似乎就没有正常过..每天都很悲哀..活在一个没感觉的世界里..我的世界不是100%没感觉,有的!是伤心的感觉..我大姑说这是失落感!我想是吧..要从熟悉的班上突然换去一个陌生的环境..没有熟悉的朋友..什么都不见了..很空虚~~朋友,不要看我每天在学校都能嘻嘻哈哈,其实我的内心是很悲哀的!!灰灰的,看不见光..我是有尽量开心啦..可是一碰到伤心的点,就可以哭!!我的哭点很低..感动也能哭..

"哭包"就是我!!
今天上书法课,而我的书法也走到了瓶颈..老师都说我的字很没感觉..我知道啊!写得就象机器一样..我很想回到之前的巅峰时期..可是我真的做不到!!(各位!不要以为PMR里会写九宫格,拿个六分,就是会写书法!不要说我骄傲!九宫格真的很没水准!!!写个全开宣纸嘛,,无聊!!)

回正题:我真的很伤!!我努力了很久,好不容易才爬到高峰,可是为什么这么快又跌下来了呢??

太不公平了!!!!!为什么?眼看挥春赛即将来临..而我??还不能保持最佳的状态..真的很懊恼!就快疯了!!

MISS~~

I MISS 2007
2007 is a vry meaningful year 4 me..it is quite normal..times jz pass like dat,bt now think back,it is actually vry fun!!
in 2007,there was a vry horrible PMR!!homework n stress were quite a lot!bt i think life is meaningful n quite full..nt like b4 life past vry normal..
yes as i type d topic..i MISS 2007..everythings!!
i expected 2 study in d 1st class n now i fulfill my dream..bt i dun hv any delighted feel..i started 2 feel i m living in d life full of STRESS!! studying in d 1st class..all d teachers expected high at us..ask us 2 bcum d best,2 bcum d model 2 o other classes..omg!!cant we jz try our best n dun12 mind d result?
besides,my class is so PACKED!!wif malays..last time my class got more chinese n now everythings change..dun say i boycott them..NO!! DEFINITELY NOOOO!!i jz used 2 wif my old frens..esp d boys!!i not falling in luv wif them k?juz miss their humorous,d joyful dat they brought 2 our class..when i was sad last time jz heard their laughing i will feel better..^ ^ sometimes they will help us when we encountered problems..but now my class lasts only 1 chinese boy..hehe..n he is not funny at all!!
of coz la..i miss my girl frenz 2!!some of them study in account class..n we cant study 2gether anymore..i miss them sooo much!!sob~sob~
n oso my malays frenz..dun curious bout it..i m quite friend wif my malays frenz..our relationship is CLOSE!!no matter boys o gals..d malays boys oso vry funny!!n now?whole class of malays i duno!!n only last bout 10 chinese in class..so depress!!

I 12 GO BACK 2 2007!!MY FRENZ!!I MISS U ALL A LOT!!!!!

frens dun 4get d days we used 2 hv b4..i will keep d days we were 2gether in my mind!n oso hope dat u all will keep on FIGHTHING!!add oil..n do d best in d future!!

let finish dis post n i m goin 2 cry under my blanket..haha XD XD

SPORT?!

omg..d unbelievablesad thing comes!!

d latihan sukan start again..it is really a torture esp 4 me..

i HATE sport!!!!!dunno y..i dun hv any interest in d subject called PJ n d activity called SPORT..
i dun understand y sb can luv sport sooooo much..bt i jz cant do it..not only in sec..bt since i m in primary..mayb b coz i m plump n dun hv potential at dat bidang lo..i m very unactive!

bside d koko dat is FORCED 2 take part,others sorry..NO!!no matter how u persuade me,tell me d advantages o wat i jz say THANK YOU..i dun like it..

n now d latihan sukan bermula..so horrible 2 me..like a NITEMARE!!i m so tired..i dun 1 2 go 2 d field n do d lame running..jumping.....WASTE MY TIME!

GOD!I DUN 1 LATIHAN SUKAN!!

they seem hear my sincerely please..2 days of latihan i need 2 go 4 1 day only(got tuition)..

YEAH!!

it's touching

long time..long time din touch by a drama..
actually i m a person whi is quite like 2 cry..SERIOUS!!
i mean nt really wail n throwing things n vry exaggerated 1 la..is sth like when u felt sad n u jz cry quietly o cry alone..no need 2 annoying another ppl 1..i like dat kind of crying..4 me dat is kind of best of 2 release my stress!really..it is really a way!sumtime i will cry n talk a lot of nonsences 2 make b feel better..nagging here..nagging there..bt lastly i must say sth 2 encourage me!try nt 2 repeat it again..hehe..i noe dat i m a gal who is quite youthful n childish lo..

things made me feel touching?
i luv 2 watch drama!esp d taiwanese drama..
bt a vry long time i din touched by d drama..since last year my lucky star..
now i m now watching a taiwan drama about basketball n luv 1..
it is a show acted by mike he n hebe..
mike is vry handsome!!his eyes can KILL ppl..
n oso my idol hebe is so SWEET!her smile makes her look cute n nice!
both of them so match..n d story 2day makes me like 2 cry..
both of them r falling in luv wif ech other bt y so cruel dat they hv 2 b seperate?see them sad sad..make me feel depress 2..sob sob..anyway,although d story oways vry romantic n not real bt i will support it 4eva..i think watch dis type of drama can make me live in unreal world 4 at least 1n half hrs n dat is oso a quite effective way 2 make me relax my mind..XD XD

SCHOOL REOPEN ! !

juz come back from my physics tuition..a totally new tuition n oso subject 4 me..
dat is not d thing i 12say now..
n wat i m trying 2 say dat IS school is FINALLY starting..haha
really vry EXHILARATED XD XD
long time din see my fellow frens..omg..i really miss them..my buddies..^^
actually i m looking 4ward 4 my f4 in d early days..bt now quite SIEN..
cannot sleep until late in d morning..cannot on line everyday..cannot watch my lovely show..cannot..cannot..got really many CANNOT..sob~sob~
anyway..d time juz arrived like dat..so i juz prepare myself 2 go 2 F4..

arrive school..like everythings CHANGE..a really enormous CHANGE!!
d plants move place..d d basketball court bcome PARKING LOT..can u imagine how is d changing??omg then i cant admire d 'handsome' guy playing basketball liao..haha..handsome guy?where got?who noe?beauty is in d eyes of d beholder..

yup..d most nice thing is dat i finally enter class 4 Bestari!!
kaka..i expected it since i were in F1..n now i juz fulfill my dream..dat is a really NICE things!!
but i oso started 2 worry dat can i continue d piece of excellent work?
but i will juz try my best lo..F4 i m coming!gambateh..

HAPPY NEW YEAR ^ ^

wow..it's 2008 ady..time flies..getting older n older liao..
anyway,wish myself hv a wonderful 2008..everythings can go well..
n oways wish all my frens happy lo..
HAPPY NEW YEAR =D HAPPY 2008 :D