你不告诉我，我自己也能找到答案
这就是爱情友情的力量。:P

628的三周年有感。

三年了，不知不觉。

一学期一学期地过，学弟学妹一批批地进，真的觉得自己老了，已经列入学长姐行列，再不是那个单纯的小学妹。从一开始的倒数五年半，茫然看不见的尽头似乎已经露出了曙光。

有点伤心的，对于三周年这事并没有人把它当作那么一回事。没有提起，更别说什么庆祝。那只是一个比平凡更平凡的的日子。或许大家都记得，却没开口去提，毕竟提起也是没有什么意义的。但对我而言，这天仍是一个值得纪念的一天。

三年，不长，但并不短。丰富我历练的不只是学业，更是生活。

学业，一次又一次重复的学期行程，早已令人麻木。但我仍是抱着热诚在学习，因为一学期比一学期更靠近当上正式老师的路程，更了解什么是教书。当初一心想当老师的自己，终于开始了解教学是怎么一回事，才发现不是当初想象的那么简单。原来教书那么有学问。我好希望自己能快点实习，快点毕业。常听学长姐说实习真的很辛苦很忙，但我真的很想快快体会当老师是怎样的。在学院上课虽然不错，但所有的理论都要凭着自己的想象来消化还真不容易，或许有教学经验了就能比较理解了吧。

生活，很多事情早已看得太淡太淡。很多时候会想自己还是不是当初的自己。不是了吧？现在面具和脸早已合为一体。现在心已被钢铁包得密不透风。参了很多人，看了很多事，感恩身边仍有几个好朋友。如果没有课业竞争，利害关系，我想我们一定是一群很好很好的朋友，但遗憾地因为有了这些带不走的名和利，我知道我们的友情还没有那么纯粹。很多时候很好，但在涉及一些事时，感情似乎也不过如此。讲师说得对，我们爱的始终是我们自己罢了。因此我并不怪任何人，因为我也是这样一个人。目前的我们，我已经很珍惜了。

换了功课拍档，目前一切都很不错。但可惜的是，旧人早已成为陌生人。我不理解自己做错了什么，对于工作拍档我从来问心无愧。

成绩出炉，得了很不错的成绩，出乎意料的。要谢谢教导过我的讲师和给予帮助的学姐们。不仅是教导，更是她们的厉害让我看到自己的不足和渺小，让我更有推动力。但自己当初的不努力，说来仍是惭愧。最要感激的是家人和菩萨。谢谢您赐予的机会。我知道自己之前的错，整个study week都在追大选新闻无心读书，但谢谢您给我机会改过，让我还能坚持自己这颗努力的心。我会更努力的，出人头地是我对家人，更是对自己的承诺。我也不断地告诫自己不要再与他人比较，考得比我好的大有人在，功课好也并不代表什么，况且我是朋友里最不爱背书不专心的那个，但毕竟不是成绩好背书一字不漏的就是好老师。信心，口条，人格，基本知识，等等等也是影响老师表现的事宜。那你问我还拼什么？我只能说为了自己一口气，不想被看不起的心。我真的只想和自己竞赛，只要每次都能达到自己设下的标准那就心满意足。当然我的标很高，不容易以达到。容易达到的还需要设吗？再说，我真的享受喜欢学习。我是宅女嘛。

三周年的这一天，在集会上被讲师当众叫出了名字，指名要我参加教具比赛，很意外但也手足无措。有多久没有这样了？有多久低调地当个默默无闻的学生？学生喜欢被肯定的心，不管到了几岁仍是一样的。从小六毕业后就再不是舞台的常客。从来就不象一些每次在班上活跃爱发表意见的同学一样，说多错多因此我总是默默做好自己的本分一心希望自己的真心和努力能被看到，象那蓝田玉，终于。当然我仍记得堂姐阿姨的话，做人仍是得低调的，我要脚踏实地，不骄傲不自大，我不完美，路还很长，笑到最后的才是赢家。

＂路，开始走了就不能回头，要仰首阔步，走完才算数！＂whatsapp的状态是这么写着的。加油，郑婧婵！sem4、教具比赛、书法精英赛、阅读、生活、人际、减肥都给我做到最好！^_^

Uncle's birthday celebration

Today is the day, finally!! So so looking forward today as I could meet my lovely nephews from Australia and also my cousins due to my uncle's 70th birthday celebration. Though we might not be very very close, but I am still very excited about it. How nice if they didnt migrate to Australia, then we could meet up more often. :( Felt happy when my nephews said they still remember me, but too bad Yang and Han couldnt remember what to call me. Only Ren did. Family bond is the most important thing in the world and I love all my family members in deep core of my heart.

With lao gor, da be be, brothers and nephews.

 Tay family 3rd and 4th generation. :)

Plus Ah Sue jie jie, le cousin sister-in-law.

In the Tai Thong Imperial City Restaurant.

My nephews are simply too CUTE!!!!! 

Having great lunch over there. Fat die me..........

 Leng Pan 冷盘

 Shark fin yumyum

 Roasted duck

 Steam fish

 Abalone!! :D

 Salad prawn

Birthday longevity noodles

 Desserts - Mango sago, shou-tao, jelly.
The mango sago is very creamy and delicious.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DA BE BE!! Cheerssssssss XD

* My uncle is an awesome brother for my aunts, dad and uncles because he took good care for them. He is also a very knowledgeable person who always shares his knowledge and experience for us. Though I seldom chat with him like I chat with my other uncles and aunties due to distance and language problem, but I know he is very care about me and also my brothers. No matter what he is always my idol and I hope I could be like him one day, own a PhD and make money. Wish him be blessed with great happiness and health so that he could attend my convo years after and be proud of me too. :) *

 Muster a lot of courage to take photo with him.
He looks alike my ah gong nowadays. *Miss my ah gong so much*

 Uncle and my brothers.

 With cousin sister Gladys.

Sent Cong back to his apartment at Damansara before we headed back to Muar. Was shocked by his house because it is super messy. My jaw dropped when I saw his study desk and room. I wondered how he could stay and study at such messy place. 

 The super small desk filled with so many books. I wonder how he gonna study at such limited space.

Bye Cong. Miss him. haha

End of the day. Back to HAZY Muar town. *I want fresh Oxygen please!!*

I cooked, for my family members. :)

I cooked many times for myself and my friends in school, but this is my first time cooked for my family because my aunt was not at home in the morning. The dishes were simple one but I felt quite difficult to cook because I never cook for so many people and I never cook these vege before, I dont even know how to cut them in a correct way. Ended up simple cut them into pieces enough haha. Simply added salt and pepper without trying. Fortunately, the outcome were not bad.* I gave myself 80 marks because they aint too salty and could be eaten XD* Felt kinda satisfied when I saw my family members eating what I cooked. (:

Teehee. This is what I cooked for my family today. xP

Simple updates

Just some updates about these few days life.
Started to write 'Chun Lian' as the preparation for donation. You might think it is abit crazy to prepare for next year CNY coz it is still a long way to go, but seriously thousands of writing needed to be prepare so I need to start my part earlier, in case I go travelling in year end holidays and no time to write?

And suddenly I felt like drawing. It had been 4 years since I last did my chinese painting and I never touch it at all throughout these 4 years. 'Busy' and 'No Materials' and 'No Inspiration' are the common excuses. Suddenly I got mood to draw so I went to the shop to buy new painting colour without second thought. I feel happy for myself. I believe that my Chinese Painting teacher will be happy when I show him my art works later on. Though the drawing aint as impressive as I want it to be, but I'm really happy because at least I realise my little urge in mind. *I am always a girl who think big but come out with nothing*

The lotus plant.

Feel like making an effect like camera shoot, focus on one flower in front and blur the behind one, but I think I fail. Coz too many flowers made this drawing a bit messy.

Sunflowers.

It is one of my favourite flower because it gives people cheerful feel. I asked my aunt to give me bouquet of sunflowers when I graduate because I found it symbolises a new bright future.

The source of inspiration and the outcome. The tomato.

Another inspiration. I found it looked quite alike, but the eyes part failed.

The Koala Bear in Australia. Mixture of Western thing and Chinese paint.

Force myself to read the novels but kinda lazy *AGAIN* and ended up sitting in front of my netbook and watch Running Man. And lastly my 3 years old netbook sick. It came out with scary noises and very lag. :( This situation had been carried on for half years + but I kept feel reluctant to change it, but my aunt was right, she said what happened if the thing suddenly went off and all my assignment gone when school reopen later. Thus, I bought a new lappie!! Love the new laptop but still feel sorry for my old baby which was given by my dad. I dont like it at first because I think it is too small and I know my complaint did hurt my dad. His expression was filled with sadness when I said I dont want. I used it at last. It accompanied me for 3 years, days and nights, throughout all my ups and downs. It contributes and work so hard everyday especially during the busiest assignment period. Thanks a lot baby, mama loves you still! I'm so proud of you because you are so small but still you can function like those big big laptop and you never hospitalized, only lag abit when I wanna find sth suddenly and made you feel nervous I know. LOL Mama really appreciate you and will still using you to watch drama haha

The 3 years old baby.

New love. It is in PINK!! ASUS Vivobook S200E which costs RM1599.

It is pretty cool due to the touch screen function. But this stupid mama still trying her best to get used to Windows 8. *I want MacBook Air badly btw but I guess I cant use it effectively, just use my brother's one enough. I scare troublesome and complicated things.*

So, thats how my first week of holidays ended. Another 2 weeks to meet newbies in college HAHA. But I still hope the time to creep, as slow as you can. (: *Dilemma, coz I wanna meet my nephews so much and my uncle's birthday dinner will be at the end of June* /: