人生中有一次orientation已经很可怜了
可是我的人生中在不到两个月的时间里，经历了两次orientation，还一山比一山高
离开kmpp已经很伤心了
来这里才发现选择离开kmpp是一个错误！
有好几次在学习唱歌，moral session，taklimat的时候，脑海中又浮现了不久前在kmpp迎新州的画面。那仿佛是昨日刚发生的事情一样，如此熟悉和清晰~眼泪又在眼眶中打转 TT
这里的华裔子弟好多，non muslim (chinese,india,bumi from sabah n sarawak) is 2/3 of this latest jun 2010 intake...但我真的好不习惯。我似乎已经习惯了四周都是马来人，我讲什么没人听得动的日子。在这里，感觉四周都有人在监视你，偷听你，毫不自由~我想抱怨些坏话的机会都没有，只好趁夜深人静上来抒发我内心的不满与感伤，真是不吐不快！
感觉上kmpp的老师好好噢！每个都带着笑脸愿意解答我们的问题，可是这里老师看起来都好严肃哦！刚刚唱校歌时，我已经努力地唱出声了，可是老师还是不允许我们坐下~剩的都是‘我们自己人’，看官应该懂我的意思了八？就觉得老师是故意的，故意要整我们。昨天排队就坐时，最后入座的也是华文组的学员，椅子所剩不多，我们拿错椅子的颜色又被念了~很多时候，我都懒得写了，被骂了无数次！！！虽然不是骂我一个人，但这种声音污染不会让你好过的~
kmpp的riadah是播ayumi hamasaki的日文歌，还有girls generation的OH!,超high的学院^^而这，什么都没有！只有在炎热的太阳底下做暖身~热！我腰酸背痛 =X
这里唯一的好处就是allowance高！以后又确保有一个铁饭碗！政府真是太聪明了~收买了许多家长的心~
只能用这堆冠冕堂皇的理由来说服自己继续留下~毕竟我也别无选择了TT
好想好想你们，向几个星期前的现在我在做什么，想你们现在在做什么~天哪，这小孩的相思病病入膏肓拉~哈！！
当个好老师是从小的愿望~好吧，let it be~this is what my life is fated,so i just have to accept the fact and try to adapt to it.Stop critisise here and learn to suit myself into it...
好白话的一篇ＬｏＬ
还有三天～need to wake up 4am,i better sleep now,bye~
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Saturday, June 26, 2010
无精打采
好累好累
头脑好累，因为睡眠不足
心也好累，因为。。。。。
整个人怪怪的
心情很差
不想讲话
在等待开学
因为想逃离
逃离无聊的生活
逃离思念的痛苦
快要疯了
好讨厌醒着的时刻
可不可以一直睡着？
好想大哭大闹发泄
可是有谁会关心?
大家都有自己的事要做
自己的梦要追
而我还是
回到自己一个人
难道孤单是我的宿命。。。
=(
='(
="(
TT . TT
头脑好累，因为睡眠不足
心也好累，因为。。。。。
整个人怪怪的
心情很差
不想讲话
在等待开学
因为想逃离
逃离无聊的生活
逃离思念的痛苦
快要疯了
好讨厌醒着的时刻
可不可以一直睡着？
好想大哭大闹发泄
可是有谁会关心?
大家都有自己的事要做
自己的梦要追
而我还是
回到自己一个人
难道孤单是我的宿命。。。
=(
='(
="(
TT . TT
Friday, June 25, 2010
still suffering in my sweet memories
it had been nearly 1 week since i back home
my memories is totally a blank in this week
without friends
without the normal life that i used to have in this whole month
i miss you all
everyday,
the one-month-memories make me happy =）
yet make me sad =(
happy when i think of all of the sweet and memorable days we had in this 1 month which was short
sad when i think of i counldnt join the other memories that you all going to have in the later 9 months
sheding tears in heart TT
my memories is totally a blank in this week
without friends
without the normal life that i used to have in this whole month
i miss you all
everyday,
the one-month-memories make me happy =）
yet make me sad =(
happy when i think of all of the sweet and memorable days we had in this 1 month which was short
sad when i think of i counldnt join the other memories that you all going to have in the later 9 months
sheding tears in heart TT
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
bACK home
my body is back to Muar
but
my heart and mind are still in KMPP
always think of what my friends are doing right now
they are still carrying out the activities that I used to carry out last time
Last time,I could see them everyday,talking nonsence,sharing interesting incidents that happened around us
Now,I can only see them through a cold screen and hear their voice through phone call
I got no more the same excited feeling when they told me what had happened because I am not there anymore
The more they told me,the sadder I am
because I could only listen to it
I can see people walking around in library through webcam
Last time I could see it myself
Now,whats behind me is just a white cold wall,whats around me is just air
I so miss you all
I am so regret that I didnt appreciate the days I was there with you all
I was just taking it as a norm
I should talk more and laugh more with you all
SO,GUYS
appreciate what u all having now
sometime,something come and something gone
the feeling would never be the same again
ps i miss you ^^
but
my heart and mind are still in KMPP
always think of what my friends are doing right now
they are still carrying out the activities that I used to carry out last time
Last time,I could see them everyday,talking nonsence,sharing interesting incidents that happened around us
Now,I can only see them through a cold screen and hear their voice through phone call
I got no more the same excited feeling when they told me what had happened because I am not there anymore
The more they told me,the sadder I am
because I could only listen to it
I can see people walking around in library through webcam
Last time I could see it myself
Now,whats behind me is just a white cold wall,whats around me is just air
I so miss you all
I am so regret that I didnt appreciate the days I was there with you all
I was just taking it as a norm
I should talk more and laugh more with you all
SO,GUYS
appreciate what u all having now
sometime,something come and something gone
the feeling would never be the same again
ps i miss you ^^
Monday, June 21, 2010
谢谢谢谢
一个月，
一个说长不长，说短不短的时间
一个月，
发生了很多奇妙的事情
认识了很多新朋友
体验了很多感觉
一开始，从排斥渐渐地接受，接受来到这么远这么陌生的城市，接受从出国到回国读书的命运
慢慢地，习惯在kmpp的生活，早上上课中午下课吃饭休息八卦傍晚洗衣冲凉吃饭八卦晚上图书馆嘻嘻哈哈上网
一个月，我才发现我每天的生活是那么地作息正常
突然间，梦醒了
回到了原点
又要回到家里等待新的生活
一开始，只知道jasmine和俐文
jasmine,只知道是个很会说话的美女，不熟
俐文，静到不行的大小姐
一个月后，
jasmine,超级神经，超会讲话的美女
俐文,颠覆印象，也是一讲就不会停的大小姐
我们三个加起来，真的是不曾安静过
每天听着jas的恋爱史，文文的爸爸妈妈，我的烦恼
日子就是这样没有营养的度过
但很开心
一开始，
只认识一个男生，思源
还每次抱怨在这里只有一个男性友人，哈
抱怨他太厉害让我很压力
到后来，认识了他的朋友，那应该是开学一个多星期的事了八
每几天poke出一个新成员
从学友，到浩维，开心，永辉，智亮，到最新的俊龙
p/s：不会一年后全kmpp的华人男生都under你们八？哈哈哈
一个月后，
吓死人，
我竟然在这里认识了整十个华人男生
远远超过了女生的数量
由于我那所谓的距离感，
所以就不太常跟他们说话
其实我觉得自己跟他们并不是很熟
就只是hi-and-bye friends,偶尔开一点玩笑而已
没想到
他们竟然送我礼物！！
还写了一堆信，尤其是永辉的咯，没事字写酱美还写酱好干嘛？
大家真得让我很感动
你们知道么？跟你们道别时的微笑是假的，转过头后，我的泪飙了出来，想到以后可能再也没机会碰面了真的很难过 TT
还我哭得乱七八糟
就只是认识一个月的朋友，还没真正了解对方的朋友
在你要离开前陪你去唱K，还给了一只超级可爱的猴子和小熊，真的是很感动！
我真得很谢谢你们上次陪我找皮包
其实你们可以不特地上来的，但你们没有
真得很感激你们，虽然最后徒劳无功，麻烦了人力，但让我见识到友情的可贵
还要谢谢你们帮我查师训的成绩到这么迟
隔天还得上课的你们~
你们还破费了~买这么大一只猴子一定很贵吧？其实你们没送我礼物真的没关系的
还好有带东西来给你们吃，要不然真的觉得自己欠你们太多了
看到你们都吃得这么开心，我也很心满意足了
明年新年一定要给你们礼物！！希望能来得及给你们~哈！
一开始，觉得caryn是banana,我也参不进yunying,ewen
谁知道不懂几时开始突然感情变得这么好
原来大家都这么好聊！！
更没想到你们也这么舍不得我~
可是才正要混熟的时候却得离开了TT
还有killer没有我想象中的冷~
原来ken会讲话，也很幽默，竟然跳gee给我看~哈！
shu也是好笑咯，一堆pose...
polim一开始感觉上也很冷，后来也是人好好噢！麻坡见啦^^
不能忘了我最亲爱的F4P3
在我一从师训interview回来就问我interview得如何
在我错过了orientation week回来后害怕混不进他们的时候不断和我说话
在我功课没做完的时候借我抄
在每次上课前叫我“老师”叫他们说华语
在我师训成绩出炉时说会舍不得我，叫我不要走
在我不舍得你们的时候，哭得乱七八糟的那个补习班的晚上，坐在我身边陪伴我
在我确定离开时，特地帮我搞了个欢送会
虽然我们相处不久，但与你们的相处，真的让我体会了团结不分宗族的事实
虽然我们宗族文化不一样，但我们相亲相爱就像一家人，我就是你们的小妹妹
有一天，我可能忘了你们的名字，但你们和我相处的每一刻，我是不可能忘记的
还有我的室友
第一次跟马来朋友同住一个屋檐下
整排走廊就只有我一个华人女生
谢谢他们在我不见钱包时主动开口说要借我钱
谢谢他们回乡后带蛇皮果给我吃
谢谢他们总是陪我聊天，讲上一个晚上的话
B1.2.13我会永远记得这个房号的
一个月真的发生了很多事
失去了朋友，也交了新朋友
我真得很希望你们不会忘记我，这个普通平凡的我
我们一辈子都要是好朋友
用一辈子了解对方
一个月太短暂
好多事还没做完
希望你们会记得我！
倘若你们来麻坡玩,请顺便来看看我~
我一定会带你们去走走，虽然麻坡只是个小镇~
除了谢谢，还是谢谢！！！
谢谢你们大家为我所作的一切。。。
谢谢你们的照顾
小女子感激不尽
一个说长不长，说短不短的时间
一个月，
发生了很多奇妙的事情
认识了很多新朋友
体验了很多感觉
一开始，从排斥渐渐地接受，接受来到这么远这么陌生的城市，接受从出国到回国读书的命运
慢慢地，习惯在kmpp的生活，早上上课中午下课吃饭休息八卦傍晚洗衣冲凉吃饭八卦晚上图书馆嘻嘻哈哈上网
一个月，我才发现我每天的生活是那么地作息正常
突然间，梦醒了
回到了原点
又要回到家里等待新的生活
一开始，只知道jasmine和俐文
jasmine,只知道是个很会说话的美女，不熟
俐文，静到不行的大小姐
一个月后，
jasmine,超级神经，超会讲话的美女
俐文,颠覆印象，也是一讲就不会停的大小姐
我们三个加起来，真的是不曾安静过
每天听着jas的恋爱史，文文的爸爸妈妈，我的烦恼
日子就是这样没有营养的度过
但很开心
一开始，
只认识一个男生，思源
还每次抱怨在这里只有一个男性友人，哈
抱怨他太厉害让我很压力
到后来，认识了他的朋友，那应该是开学一个多星期的事了八
每几天poke出一个新成员
从学友，到浩维，开心，永辉，智亮，到最新的俊龙
p/s：不会一年后全kmpp的华人男生都under你们八？哈哈哈
一个月后，
吓死人，
我竟然在这里认识了整十个华人男生
远远超过了女生的数量
由于我那所谓的距离感，
所以就不太常跟他们说话
其实我觉得自己跟他们并不是很熟
就只是hi-and-bye friends,偶尔开一点玩笑而已
没想到
他们竟然送我礼物！！
还写了一堆信，尤其是永辉的咯，没事字写酱美还写酱好干嘛？
大家真得让我很感动
你们知道么？跟你们道别时的微笑是假的，转过头后，我的泪飙了出来，想到以后可能再也没机会碰面了真的很难过 TT
还我哭得乱七八糟
就只是认识一个月的朋友，还没真正了解对方的朋友
在你要离开前陪你去唱K，还给了一只超级可爱的猴子和小熊，真的是很感动！
我真得很谢谢你们上次陪我找皮包
其实你们可以不特地上来的，但你们没有
真得很感激你们，虽然最后徒劳无功，麻烦了人力，但让我见识到友情的可贵
还要谢谢你们帮我查师训的成绩到这么迟
隔天还得上课的你们~
你们还破费了~买这么大一只猴子一定很贵吧？其实你们没送我礼物真的没关系的
还好有带东西来给你们吃，要不然真的觉得自己欠你们太多了
看到你们都吃得这么开心，我也很心满意足了
明年新年一定要给你们礼物！！希望能来得及给你们~哈！
一开始，觉得caryn是banana,我也参不进yunying,ewen
谁知道不懂几时开始突然感情变得这么好
原来大家都这么好聊！！
更没想到你们也这么舍不得我~
可是才正要混熟的时候却得离开了TT
还有killer没有我想象中的冷~
原来ken会讲话，也很幽默，竟然跳gee给我看~哈！
shu也是好笑咯，一堆pose...
polim一开始感觉上也很冷，后来也是人好好噢！麻坡见啦^^
不能忘了我最亲爱的F4P3
在我一从师训interview回来就问我interview得如何
在我错过了orientation week回来后害怕混不进他们的时候不断和我说话
在我功课没做完的时候借我抄
在每次上课前叫我“老师”叫他们说华语
在我师训成绩出炉时说会舍不得我，叫我不要走
在我不舍得你们的时候，哭得乱七八糟的那个补习班的晚上，坐在我身边陪伴我
在我确定离开时，特地帮我搞了个欢送会
虽然我们相处不久，但与你们的相处，真的让我体会了团结不分宗族的事实
虽然我们宗族文化不一样，但我们相亲相爱就像一家人，我就是你们的小妹妹
有一天，我可能忘了你们的名字，但你们和我相处的每一刻，我是不可能忘记的
还有我的室友
第一次跟马来朋友同住一个屋檐下
整排走廊就只有我一个华人女生
谢谢他们在我不见钱包时主动开口说要借我钱
谢谢他们回乡后带蛇皮果给我吃
谢谢他们总是陪我聊天，讲上一个晚上的话
B1.2.13我会永远记得这个房号的
一个月真的发生了很多事
失去了朋友，也交了新朋友
我真得很希望你们不会忘记我，这个普通平凡的我
我们一辈子都要是好朋友
用一辈子了解对方
一个月太短暂
好多事还没做完
希望你们会记得我！
倘若你们来麻坡玩,请顺便来看看我~
我一定会带你们去走走，虽然麻坡只是个小镇~
除了谢谢，还是谢谢！！！
谢谢你们大家为我所作的一切。。。
谢谢你们的照顾
小女子感激不尽
Friday, June 18, 2010
totally collapse
it was a really sad news that made half of the muarian cry out their heart TT
the sweetest Wee's family had been destroyed by the mishap in Kuantan-Segamat Road...
I was taking tuition with Mr Wee from Form 1 to Form 3,everytime during class he did his best to explain to us.He never been selfish in lending us the Science CD to let us understand better.I remember Mrs Wee always give him a cup of water during class and he once told us that if guys want to get marriage have to find a wife like that,and the whole class burst out laughing!I can barely remember Mr Wee laughing and Mrs Wee shy smile.They were such a sweet couple and the sweetness of the family is shown through the photo around the living room....
But,unfortunately,the scene had gone..........
It is really a cruel fact!We have lost a great teacher!!
Mr Wee called me before to teach me how to further up my studies since i was confuse towards my future and asked for his help,he spoke to me kindly and offered me help if I still had problems.He was such a nice man!responsible teacher!caring father!pious christian! WHY? WHY he was killed in such mishap? It is so unfair for him and his family and for all the students!
Is it because of God is having green eyes towards this happy Wee's family? =(
Jacinth...I miss you too...We havent know each other well and now u had gone...
In my memory,u were really a sweet and shy girl.The first time when you get your hair rebonded,you were shy until you feel reluctant to come out to the tuition class,how shy you are?lolss
you are a gentle and quiet girl too.You seldom talk in class.Even u talked,also in a low volume.I remembered the songs you recommend to me,Good girl turn bad by Fergie.It was really a nice song! You were also a korean singer addict..and also I can remember we exchange tips and giving each other mentally support before SPM...The memories u gave me aint many,but they were all a good one! REST IN PEACE,JACinth,you would never been eliminated in my memory,never and ever...rest in peace under the care of your beloved father God...
Life is so weak,breakable and unpredictable
the previous second,a person alive and talk to you doesnt mean that he ll still be there in the next second.
My hands were trembling and my heart sank when I heard this news from my dear jie jie,I shocked until I couldnt squeeze my tears out.I couldnt focus throughout the whole lecture.I hate myself for being so helpless.I couldnt do anything for them except crying and praying for them... =X
I hope that I can be appreciate everybody I know in my life because we will never know when are we going to lose them...as i said appreciate every moments =)
p/s:Mrs Wee,be STRONG!!
the sweetest Wee's family had been destroyed by the mishap in Kuantan-Segamat Road...
I was taking tuition with Mr Wee from Form 1 to Form 3,everytime during class he did his best to explain to us.He never been selfish in lending us the Science CD to let us understand better.I remember Mrs Wee always give him a cup of water during class and he once told us that if guys want to get marriage have to find a wife like that,and the whole class burst out laughing!I can barely remember Mr Wee laughing and Mrs Wee shy smile.They were such a sweet couple and the sweetness of the family is shown through the photo around the living room....
But,unfortunately,the scene had gone..........
It is really a cruel fact!We have lost a great teacher!!
Mr Wee called me before to teach me how to further up my studies since i was confuse towards my future and asked for his help,he spoke to me kindly and offered me help if I still had problems.He was such a nice man!responsible teacher!caring father!pious christian! WHY? WHY he was killed in such mishap? It is so unfair for him and his family and for all the students!
Is it because of God is having green eyes towards this happy Wee's family? =(
Jacinth...I miss you too...We havent know each other well and now u had gone...
In my memory,u were really a sweet and shy girl.The first time when you get your hair rebonded,you were shy until you feel reluctant to come out to the tuition class,how shy you are?lolss
you are a gentle and quiet girl too.You seldom talk in class.Even u talked,also in a low volume.I remembered the songs you recommend to me,Good girl turn bad by Fergie.It was really a nice song! You were also a korean singer addict..and also I can remember we exchange tips and giving each other mentally support before SPM...The memories u gave me aint many,but they were all a good one! REST IN PEACE,JACinth,you would never been eliminated in my memory,never and ever...rest in peace under the care of your beloved father God...
Life is so weak,breakable and unpredictable
the previous second,a person alive and talk to you doesnt mean that he ll still be there in the next second.
My hands were trembling and my heart sank when I heard this news from my dear jie jie,I shocked until I couldnt squeeze my tears out.I couldnt focus throughout the whole lecture.I hate myself for being so helpless.I couldnt do anything for them except crying and praying for them... =X
I hope that I can be appreciate everybody I know in my life because we will never know when are we going to lose them...as i said appreciate every moments =)
p/s:Mrs Wee,be STRONG!!
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
最快乐的星期三
今天真是个快乐的一天
天空刚被大雨洗涤过
天空蓝蓝的
云朵白白的
好温暖舒服的感觉
koko之后，和朋友们去‘踩’脚车，拍照。。。
出乎我意料的是我竟然豁出去了
竟然挑战我不敢尝试的走单索
可能是太压力而发疯了八~lol
谢谢你们帮我过去，我真得很怕跌下去，那一刻真的觉得很开心
谢谢你哦~
还有老聪，想到要跟你炫耀才会不怕死地走过去，哈 xD
回家就可以大声说话了，lols =P
之后就玩开了，不怕死的我~
今天真是太开心了！！
真羡慕你们以后还有机会一起玩，而我。。。
emo again。。。
hope that u all wont forget me and we got the chance to be together again^^
thank GOD for arranging u all to appear in my life
u all had brighten up my life
appreciate and love you all
天空刚被大雨洗涤过
天空蓝蓝的
云朵白白的
好温暖舒服的感觉
koko之后，和朋友们去‘踩’脚车，拍照。。。
出乎我意料的是我竟然豁出去了
竟然挑战我不敢尝试的走单索
可能是太压力而发疯了八~lol
谢谢你们帮我过去，我真得很怕跌下去，那一刻真的觉得很开心
谢谢你哦~
还有老聪，想到要跟你炫耀才会不怕死地走过去，哈 xD
回家就可以大声说话了，lols =P
之后就玩开了，不怕死的我~
今天真是太开心了！！
真羡慕你们以后还有机会一起玩，而我。。。
emo again。。。
hope that u all wont forget me and we got the chance to be together again^^
thank GOD for arranging u all to appear in my life
u all had brighten up my life
appreciate and love you all
Monday, June 14, 2010
曲终人散
为什么人要有缘相遇，却不能永远在一起？
远赴他乡，我是下了多大的决心才甘愿来槟城读书，我适应自己，调整心情，为什么现在又要回去？
离梦想更进一步了
我为什么要拒绝？为什么又止步？
我不懂。。。
自己是真得想当老师，还是回家，还是逃避这里？
我好喜欢这里的人事物，每天都更认识新朋友，新设施
我才刚要开始和新朋友混熟时
就已经来到了最后一个星期
好舍不得
真的
为什么你们要对我这么好？明明知道我不会久留~
为什么我要对这里产生感情？明明知道自己很快就会离开的
为什么为什么？
回去了，我们还会见面吗？
如果一辈子都不能再见了，我会感伤么？
我不知道你们会么？但可以肯定的是，我会！
我会好想好想你们！！！
现在就已经开始想念了~~
倒数计时中。。。。。。。。。。
远赴他乡，我是下了多大的决心才甘愿来槟城读书，我适应自己，调整心情，为什么现在又要回去？
离梦想更进一步了
我为什么要拒绝？为什么又止步？
我不懂。。。
自己是真得想当老师，还是回家，还是逃避这里？
我好喜欢这里的人事物，每天都更认识新朋友，新设施
我才刚要开始和新朋友混熟时
就已经来到了最后一个星期
好舍不得
真的
为什么你们要对我这么好？明明知道我不会久留~
为什么我要对这里产生感情？明明知道自己很快就会离开的
为什么为什么？
回去了，我们还会见面吗？
如果一辈子都不能再见了，我会感伤么？
我不知道你们会么？但可以肯定的是，我会！
我会好想好想你们！！！
现在就已经开始想念了~~
倒数计时中。。。。。。。。。。
Friday, June 4, 2010
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