dont cry,sky...

the sky is quite gloomy and dark recently..
did anybody realise it??
maybe only me..realise it...
我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯 早已经全都熄灭
my feeling is just like this lyric..
grey.feeling like autumn,droping leaves.dont know how to pass the long,boring night.my heart and mind are dark.to conclude is i am so sad......
it is raining now.maybe you dont know why it is raining,but i know!
no science theory . no weather broadcast . nothing .
just because a shifu in tangkak was die.
just because my uncle didnt want his family anymore.
just because..............

today is shifu's funeral.she is going to be cremated.i cant see her anymore.NO MORE!
can you understand how do i feel? i dont think so..
because nobody care about me and they dont want to share feeling with me..
i worried whether shifu will feel painful or not..where is she right now...
i know my thinking is so childish but i just miss her...
a person suddenly dissapear from your life and you wouldnt see her forever.
this is really sad!isnt it? >.< n i really dont like this!!I HATE IT!
until now.she died for a whole week ady but i still cant believe!
although i had seen her dead body but.....still not believe that she had passed away..
she is still alive in my memories. yes,she is! she will never die in my memories.

beside that,i also miss my uncle.
he is leaving us,working in KL.
he is blind and he is working in the big city.it is dangerous.all of us are worrying him but why he cant feel it and determine to go there?papa and aunties are worry but uncle shouted at them angrily!now,everybody is dissapointed ady.so sad!!!i also miss my uncle..come back la...haiz

why recently so suai??
i think a lot but all my thinking is encircle an topic-DEATH.
i think there are some problems in my brain and i wonder should i receive the psychoteraphy?

the sky was sobbing . crying . wailing .
me too, sobbing . crying . wailing .
now the rain had stopped and the warm sun had came out with a sweet and brilliant smile.
but can i stop crying and worrying?
can the sun in my heart also appear?
我眼泪都笑了 谁还想哭呢
再勇敢的站着 找回光和热......
ya,maybe i should follow this lyric
be brave and find my strength and determination back...

dont cry,sky..
dont cry,girl..