i lose but i NEVER surrender

again...
i took part in the KBSM calligraohy competition
again...
i lose
again...
i feel sad
it is not sad due to the failness
but,i had practiced so hardly but i still not managed to get prizes
in this very last year =(
i feel sorry to my calligraphy teacher and school teacher who have expected highly for me

this is what written by me

works that grt prizes but none of it was done by me ;(

performances time..so sien!a day was just wasted like this...

i still not able to get NO1

and not even a prize,sigh..............

I LOSE but i NEVEr surrender!!
i will be better de,i believed =X

become more and more 'auntie-ish' recently
i love and really ADDICTED to gossip with my friend about this and that
and make other friends who are not involving are kinda confused
haha XD
like to see his face which looked puzzled *devilish wink* =)
the more question marks rise up,the more i wont tell
lalalalalallalalalaalalaaaaaaaaaaaaa

going to take part in the calligraphy competition tomorrow!
HOPE to get NO1
the very last time participate in chinese carnival
-/\- hope and hope and hope endlessly

a boy chases after a beautiful girl
due to her beauty

a boy approachs a normal girl
due to her homework

he likes her
he loves her

all in RED

we are all in RED
funny and interesting isnt it?

where am I??

smiling shy there~~~

terror ==

daddy's birthday =D

today is my dad 51-year-old birthday ^^ a red letter day oo...
my bro and simply planned sth to buy for my dad,using our own money oo...
we bought a green tea cake,2 pizza and belt for the little celebration
what i can say is only...we all are really happy!!
especially my dad...his eyes smile like slit...
we put the belt in one of the sunsweet bag and asked my dad to choose from it.there got 4 together and my dad was really surprised when he saw it!!hee hee...make me feel very proud!

blowing candles
4 of us XD

normal??normal...

people with good result do not mean that they aren't normal human beings..
it doesnt mean that they are God
it doesnt mean that they must behave themselves in a perfect way,flawlessly

people with impeccable result are also homo sapiens!
they also have only 24 pairs chromosomes,
just like everybody.....

why people think that people with excellent results dont know how to play poker?
why people surprised with the rude words that blurted out from the mouth of people who pass their exam with flying colors?
why people always having high expectations for me?
why i cant ponteng kelas?
WHY???

i am not very clever as what my friends think!DEFINITELY NOT!
recently,
i feel that i have loss the interest to hit the books...
i feel lazy to study...
i duno what i want to do...
anyway,i will try my best to be the BEST!!
gambateh neh ^^

bull shit =(

i hate the life recently...
all the things happen make me wanna cry and the endlessly stress weigh me down
i am sooooo sad!!
i quarelled with my friend in the morning due to some stupid things.........
i must admit that both of us are wrong or maybe both of us are right,but we just have our own stand...and all sort of rude words blurted out from our mouth automatically.it just happened naturally,i feel so annoyed but also sad... :( as she is one of my best friend who brings me a lot of fun.but,i wont,DEFINITELY wont to surrender!!i will be so ashamed :/ maybe you think that that 'face' is not as important as friend,but i care!
I AM NOT WRONG

it was so difficult to held a trip...it is not only destroying friendship,but also make me pek cek!!
DAMN IT

disappointed....

what can i say and feel is just sad amd disappointed...
we have been asked to plan the activities that can be carried out in this year..
and finally and luckily,now everything is settled!!
although there are a lot of although,but a BUT is enough~~~
BUT,
I CANT GO!!
i have to take part in chinese carnival on 24/4 and so gam,the date given by the travel company is also 24/4!!why so gam de??

a baby you born after 9months you cant see him
a plan you plan after 1 month you cant participate
sad isnt it?? ><
I WANNA GO!!sob~~

i am going to massage my legs now...they are half paralysed and damn painful...after having 3 hours of taekwando training and kept on kicking non-stop...omg
terror

jogging jogging and jogging

during this holiday and yesterday,my friends and i went for jogging...
i hate jogging and running,but no choice...i have to take black belt test this year but until now i still cant finish running in the time set...
yesterday was a nice day...
the shrill of my alarm was heralding a new born day,feeling tired but i still had to drag my lazy body from my lovely sweet bed...the sun was so bright today,kept on sending perspiration to me...i felt sad as the day would be damn hot!!i hate HOT day...sigh~~~
so hard to run..although i had tried my best to run as fast as i could,i still not managed to finish it in time...haiz again :-(
ya,as a responsible citizen,i successfully persuading my family to switch off the light yesterday night!!haha...i felt touching when saw the whole residential area was dark!!that means that everybody is responsible and willing to sacrifice 1 hour to save the Earth from terus destroying...
haha :D

anyway,i had cut my hair just now....looked so stupid :/

b4

after

just post this for you all to have a good laugh :D

thx God for creating such beautiful plants... =D

plants in my garden...nice ma?
the photo cant show their real beauty...they are in blazing red!!the whole plant is red when you look at it and the leaves are also greenish-red(got such words nt?haha XD) the mood can suddenly becomes happier and more cheerful and the smile can naturally appeared in face which was dull...
anyway,nice thing always faded away fast because of the cruelty of time X(
the flowers can only tahan for about 1 week and then no more :(

sweet izit?? pinkish-red!! but actually the flowers are quite bright de,this picture is quite blurrrr...i took it in a rainy day...

this was taken after having jogging in my school field...if you pass by,please have a look at the dato padang...but i duno now still got or not =p this plant oso quite weak and the flowers easily to drop...kinda autumn ^^ feel romantic,huh??
the crystallic-light-sky is very nice,but duno why it looked not very attrative in the photo shown... :( the sunlight is soft and the breeze is gentle and the field is green and the air is sweet and....the whole surrounding make me feel so relax!!if you got a chance,just give yourself a chance to lie down on a large field and look that the blue sky,and slowly....you will feel sleepy and fell asleep soon ^^ very relax!

there got a whole baris of the tree but in the photo it is not clear!but if you can see it by your own eye,really!!a NICE FEEL!!ROMANTIC like you are in the country which has 4season....like you are in the movie or korean drama ^^

i am so sleepy ZZZ

cool breeze carresses me!!

high spirits that my exam was finally coming to an end!!!
WOW WOW
this time,the exam is quite tough!!i had been prepared it for quite long,but i cant really do it well...maybe it is quite ok,but i think i am not very satisfied with it...i must put it more effort to get better result!!
like today,the SPM result was coming out...one of my taekwando senior get 9A1 and 1A2..so nice and well done *envy*..i hope that i am able to get straight A1 too!!
going to have my eng presentation tomorrow FINALLY..
nothing much to write leh...as my life pass so dull :(

i got no1!!

the last tues(3/3),i took part in the KBSM calligraphy competition!
and happily,
i got NO 1 in that competition!!
feel like on the peak of glorious......!
this is my 7th time,participate in that competition in the peringkat daerah!!
3times in KBSR and 4 times in KBSM..
and i pernah enter peringkat negeri 6 times...
but my best record is only a consolation =.=" 3times
perhaps in this very last time,i will gt the no1 in this competition!!!

wish me good luck!!k?

HAPPY!!!!!

my calligraphy teacher praised me!!!!
HE PRAISED ME!!!
he asked me to take part in an international calligraphy exhibition
and asked me dont uar-uarkan because he only selected few ppl...
I AM SELECTED!!!!

and he said i am qualified to teach calligraphy ady!!
so so so so so shuang!!!
DAMN HAPPY DE LAR~~~~~
i must not let him down
and wanna gambateh!!

LITTLE IKLAN!!
anybody who wanna learn calligraphy
PLS let me know.....
fees: RM120 /10 times
time: twice a week
place: opposite old hock hai,above anda travel
now students at my teacher there few only,so i wanna promote!

try my best to be happy

i smile
until my lips are nearly break
i laugh
until my stomach is painful
but you will never see my 'true' happiness...

i smile because i need to let people think that i am happy
i laugh because i need to do so at that particular moment

the jokes from my friends are really funny
and i have a good laugh
but after a while
the smile disappear
however
i am really happy with all of you
SERIOUS!

but.......
when i am alone
i still cant stop crying

you may ask me that why i am sad and still cant go out from sadness
but I JUST CANT
hope that the time can wash all my depress

sorry dear wy,
i just cant be happy
but i am really all right with you all
dont worry
i am ok de
muaksssss :D

大小声。减肥篇

大声告诉自己
肥胖是笨拙，丑陋，难看

小声告诉自己
发胖不是罪，是福气

大声是宣言
小声是安慰

把宣言调低声量
让安慰趁机发声
声调适量
就能瘦身

大小声。哀愁篇

大声地在白昼。笑

小声地在黑夜。哭

想念可以大声高歌

也能小声吊唁

习惯小声哭泣的我
却怎么也学不会

把声量调中

只能躲在被窝里

继续

听着

滴滴答答流水声

残忍的思念

思念阿公的忧伤
好比淡淡的菊花香

午夜梦回
脸上的泪
干了又湿
湿了又干

梦醒时分
告诉自已死亡是场梦
又残忍地
否定了自己

posting in school...

i am writing this post in school!!
haha...it's REAL!!serious and no kiddin XP
now is history period and i am in makmal computer
after my teacher finished teaching,she lets us to online!!
DAMN GOOD HER ^^
so i am now to post this.....
because i am boring so...i am HERE lo....LOLZ :D
going to post some chinese poems later after back home
and perhaps i can finish my eng presentation within this 2 weeks and i am able to post my presentation here and let you all have a good laugh!!
HAAHHAHAHAH

bubye~~~~~~~~~~

F**K-ing mood =C

Feeling terrible recently
U cant really understand what is inside my mind if u only read this
C? u are not really understand me
Koz i always wear a radiant smile
I am blank and sad and down and depress and...
Nobody know me
God know


Monthly test is coming
Oh my god...no preparation had been done
Oh my god...i dont want to lose
D success is belongs to me!

=C ? nonononono
should be =D

competition in makhota parade

i took part in competition in makhota parade today morning...

the calligrapher wrote there again!!

it is not easy to be a calligrapher!!!!!

write word like this big is very difficult :/

see? a bull!!nice drawing ^^

all of the works here is mainly about remembering dato sim mow yu...

i miss him sooooo much!!

every year he will attend in this competiton and talk a lot and write for us to see....

but now he had gone and will never here again.....deep sigh!!

i got NO2 again!!!but still feeling happy XD XD

until now,i had earn RM780 in all the competitions i had taken part!!

HOORAY ^^
try harder to get better XP XP

fated~~~

she knows tuition teacher from my other friends
luckily that girl not my buddies...they didnt betray me
is another stupid fellow!!!
so kepo!!busybody!!!!!!!!sucks her~~~ :C
she didnt ask her
why she tells her???
she gains no benifit but destroy me only!!!!!!
DAMN HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



i know that my speaking and thinking are childish!!
how can i avoid one to attend tution class?
how can i stop one from winning me?
it can only blame my selfishness and kiasu mind!!

NO MATTER HOW!!!!
I WANT TO TOP MY CLASS!!!
tell me how to do,readers with excellent result?

a bad girl

i am a bad girl...
no doubt,
the bad girl is me........


i am a bad girl with a selfish mind
i hate people who compete with me
this is because i am lack of confidence and not intelligent at all
so,
i scared people will be better than me
i asked them dont introduce tuition to her
i am annoyed by her conscientious
i am seethed with hatred when see her hardworking behavior
i am pretending to be a normal student in class
i try to tell her that i am stupid


i know my behavior and thinking are very very wrong
but.......
i am not confident

how?
save me from being a green eye monster!!

cute!!

just received this from my friend-li lin...very cute!!
this little creature is damn cute!!!!!keep on laughing and smiling ^^ he is a 5-month-old baby,who my dad babysits him.....CUTE

gong-xi gong-xi

competition in malacca

i went to calligraphy competition in malacca yesterday afternoon...

the surrounding there was quite solemn and not as happy as normal,before the competition started,we were asked to stand still andexpress our condolence for dato sim mow yu...i planned to send my respect to him,but i cant go because my ah gong haven reach 49 days and there is a pantang.......

before competition started,all the famous calligrapher wrote!

this is mr foo yong gang...this competition is under his name..he donated RM5000 for the use of this competition!so generous XD

this is what he had drawn...bamboo!!

this is the one written by a calligrapher from China...he had create this words by using the name of 'yong gang'...so talented!!

this is drawn by mr lim rong guang...very cute and artistic!!!!!

can you see a boy sit on the cow??

this is mr foo yong jie(mr foo yong gang's brother)..he also drew a cow!

this is the one he had drawn....nice isnt it?

SMALL CALLIGRAPHY EXHIBITION IN MY BLOG

you should feel happy to see all this because they are all produced by very famous and talented calligrapher from KL,singapore and even china..and all of this can be sell in damn high price!!!!!

this was written by mr foo yong guang last year

and this was written by dato sim mow yu last year at the age of 96!!he supported every activity and still took part in this competition last year...but unfortunately now,he had gone and will never present in the activity again....~.~ however,his semangat will also be with us!!we must also learn his behaviour to be determined,strong,friendly and so on......

after i had finished written mine...i went outside and strolled there...so many people,very difficult to move!! =.=" and i even met my teacher--miss tai there!!omg...m'sia is toooo small!!! :X
this lady is sooo praise-worthy!!can you see how she write??she has no hand!!she only use her elbow to write and her calligraphy is so nice!!*clap*

after about 1 1/2 hours,finally the result came out!!i had been waited for so long!!

i got 2nd in this competition!!!it is a big jump for me as i used to get only 3rd in malacca de competiton!!and now,i am able to get 2nd prize!!!i am on cloud nine not because of this 2nd prize and money given only,the reason that made me damn high spirits is my calligraphy teacher praised me in front of everyone!!

he said my writting is very big and got my own style!and mr foo yong gang admire my writting and asked who am i..and my teacher answered them i am a 'little girl'...damn happy!!overwhelmed with joy that they admired my writting!!!!hahahahah XD XD i had been waiting this for so long!!hooray!!cheers!! ^^ i will try my best in the future not to let my teacher down!!

heheh^^ can you see me?i am so 'tiny' in this picture...not tiny,should say short!!!

i am so short!!!sob *blushed*

the guy on my right is the champion and the guy on my left is the one who always top in competition!!happy that i am now same level with him and pernah win him!!!and the one with blue shirt and hold the mic is my calligraphy teacher!

on the way home...take the photo of this menara!i am not dare to sit there as it is quite high and the ticket for this is expensive!not worth at all =.='''

that all for tonight's journey~~~

another post for today

my school held the anually merentas desa today
so tired to run!!
BUT I STILL RUN!!try my best in the last year,aza aza!!GAMBATEH! ^^

i wanna follow my friends who can run very fast one,but my condition not allow me to do so...my heart is so painful..and i am not determined enough! poor girl who can give up easily~~
then i run alone....and along the journey,i met vo fern,sze wen,daniel,yuan yuan.....yuan even took the photograph of me.!omg,sure very ugly one!!my sweat pour down like dunno what and my hair is like xiao za bo! =.="

finally,i arrived!!
i got no 43!!!quite a big jump for me ady(last year i think i got 60)
yi ling got no11(crazy de!!)
heng chen got 20sth(also another crazy fellow!)
my seniors of taekwando got no2 and 3(lagi gila!!)
when they heard of my result,they think it is good enough FOR ME!!i dont bother about how true their comments about my result,whether comfort me or what,i still felt relief! XP

appreciate every moments

if we must die one day,then why we are born??

early in the morning,when i arrived school...
heng chen told me a BAD NEWS!!


dato sim mow yu had passed away...what a bad news for me!!
my tears nearlly flowed down when i heard this news!!*heart-broken*...i stunned and astonished there for about 5 sec and kept on asking whether the news is correct or not...

he is one of my idol....he is hero for our chinese society!he fought for the authority of chinese and even entered the prison in the age of 70sth due to this!!can you imagine how terrible in the prison at the age of 70sth...he thought of kill himself but he did not done this...

last two years.i even participated his 95-years-old birthday celebration and all of us hope that we can take part in his 100-years old birthday celebration,but unfortunely......it will never happen!!!i really felt sad!u know??

his calligraphy also very very good!!and made me admire soooo much!!he is able to writhe very huge words last year....but.......and also,he was a strong man!he can give a speech for more than 30mins.....last year during my senior's calligraphy exhibition,he present there and can walk with tongkat still....who knows?here(http://appreciate-every-moments.blogspot.com/2008/08/calligraphy-exhibition.html)

everything is just happen too fast,like death of my dearest grandpa......
nobody thought of that..............
and,this year like sooooo many old people past away...really!!you just open the newspaper and see...why??
why so many elderly were brought away?
isit we the young generation are not enough fillial or what??

i learn that we MUST appreciate the moment we are having now!!greet our family members and help them to do chores willingly,without complaining and moaning.....to prevent regret..because as sth happen,the time will never rewind back again no matter how loud we cry...this are all the value i learnt after my ah gong passed away...

i treat him not very very good,i didnt accompany to talk...and now,i got no chance ady..what i can do now is only treat my other family members better to retrieve the regret!

i will try my best to be the good good girl!!! \^v^//

appreciate every moments