《草房子》记录

曹文轩《草房子》

好读指数: ★★★★★★★★★☆ (9/10)

原因：读了心很痛。

似乎好书总有种魅力，好看但说不出的好看。

或许如果有人问我为什么觉得这本书好看，我根本就说不出，就像我现在打不出来一样。

好书就是读完了头脑会有很多思绪，但你却整理不出一个脉络说个清楚。

好书就是读完了心很空，仿佛你曾经经历过书中种种，梦醒了，心空了。

《草房子》我找了很久，一直买不到。

踏破铁鞋无觅处，得来全不费工夫，我竟在学校图书馆发现了它的踪迹。

最近真的太忙，我忍了好久，今天终于能好好读一读。

故事并不按照情节的顺序写下去，而是以人物的介绍和发生在该人物身上的故事开展的。

其中最令我印象深刻的是秦老奶奶和杜小康的故事。

垂暮老人在最后一瞬所闪耀的人格光彩

不幸少年与厄运相拼时的悲怆与优雅

都给我心里留下特别深刻的烙印。

我的转述肯定不会让你有什么感觉，因为太多语言被删去，我只是单纯地记录着故事，让自己能随时重温这份悸动。

秦老奶奶和去世的丈夫秦大凭自己的努力买了一块地，但却因为政府发展教育征收了这片地建了草房子为学校，导致她被赶到只能住在土地上的一个小角落里。

她总是带着她养的鸡鸭去学校捣乱，因此校长发动全校帮老奶奶搬家。

老奶奶誓死守着这片地，总是趁人不注意就睡在这篇土地上，赶也赶不走，惹怒了校长。

直至有一天，她跳入水中救了一个小孩。

村民们为了照顾她就把她接回学校里住。

老奶奶康复了，有一天也想通了，就想要回去自己的新家去住。

“就像当年谁也无法让她离开这里一样，现在谁也无法让她留下来”

这时油麻地的孩子像是少了什么一样，又把老奶奶抬回了学校里。

老奶奶最后还是离开了大家，她不是老死的，上一次她为了就一个小孩跳入河里，这一次她是为了救油麻地小学的一颗南瓜跳入水里的

她被淹死了。

读到这里，我竟然眼眶泛泪。不知为何，或许是被老奶奶和油麻地，老奶奶和孩子们的情感被深深打动的吧？

杜小康则是一间杂货店的少爷。

由于油麻地的人或多或少都会到他爸爸经营的杂货店拿货，欠钱，因此身边的朋友不太敢招惹他，深怕自己欠钱还没还的事被他挂在嘴边。

可是杜小康的爸爸想要拓展生意却沉船了，家道中落。

杜小康也因此没书读了。

他必须照顾父亲，必须打工赚钱还债。

到后来他和父亲养了鸭子打算出城去卖结果又发生了事故。完了。全都完了。

但这反倒成了成就杜小康的财富。

所有的经历让他不再是那个充满优越感的杜小康，而是没有一丝卑微的杜小康。

他在学校门口摆摊，贩卖文具给以前的同学，为了家计他不担心别人笑话。

他的故事令我感动，有一种很担心他的未来却又很希望他能成功的激动在心中荡漾。

当然 还有贯穿这整本书的主人翁——桑桑。桑乔校长的儿子。

到书本的最后一个章节，他患病了。

我真的认为他会死去，毕竟这书本的基调真的不是太开朗的。

但，他活过来了，像死过一轮那样。

只不过随着父亲的升迁，他离开了油麻地，告别与他朝夕相伴的这片金色的草房子。

故事也因此而落幕，留下心里空空的我。

实习结束前，我下定决心把这套纯美小说系列读完！

Practicum 3.0 - Chinese New Year Celebration

After 3 week practicum, finally the long awaited break is coming.

It's Chinese New Year!!!

I had received so many things from the school due to this important festival.

There were two big meals that I had attended, two angpau I had received (one from lucky draw, one from PIBG) and one big box of mandarin orange.

I really feel thankful for the school because the teachers here never treat us like an outsider, but as one family. Whatever the teachers get, we teacher-trainees get too. I will never take thing for granted, I promise to work even harder and contribute more to the school.

So, there is this Chinese New Year celebration yesterday.

It was really grand event.

The loud, the applause, the cheers, the songs, the performances and so on.

Everything was great! Everybody enjoyed the event.

Even the headmistress who seemed to be serious danced and posed with the students too.

What a warm picture!

I am glad to join and contribute some shows.

Let's the photos tell.

 The headmistress was giving a speech.
There were some chun lian written by students.
Personally found the winners' writing weren't as nice as I supposed the winners to be.

 My first try in helping the students to make up.
Don't blame me arghhhhhh I felt scared too *giggle*

 The pretties.

 My dancers.

 With my 天天好天 dancers.
Actually I felt like reject the teacher's request to teach them because I found this was a tough task. But I accepted the task somehow. I found a lot of performance videos in YouTube. I mix and match them haha. Thankfully these girls really obedient and co-operate with me. They learnt things fast. And we successfully produce a show. Cheers!

With the 财神爷！
I was shocked and my jaw dropped when I first saw them. I couldn't even believe my eyes!
Coz they are the 大人物 BIG people in the school. I really respect them because they love their primary school so much that they donate and help the school. I hope I could be like them one day, contribute to the school too.

 Selfie with Miss Gui.

 With Miss Gui again.
She is the teacher who brought me to public speaking when I was in Standard 5 and 6. Though she never teach me before, we got sorta 革命情感 that couldn't break.

慈济大爱妈妈带活动。感恩。

 With 不老传说 pretty Miss Lim who taught me English when I was in Standard 3 or 4.

 With my guru pembimbing.
She is very gentle and her comments are all encouraging. Really learn a lot from her even only go through one time observation.

 With my 3A kids.

 With 2B kids.
The class monitor who stands in the middle is super duper cute! She is a good monitor who always help me to control her class.

Singing Ceria 喜洋洋, A malay new year song.
I love this song!!

With my teammates who perform with me on the stage. 

Puan Low in the middle taught me when I was in Year 3 too. She is still very pretty.

I don't know why but I could feel that my confidence boosts up when I am in the school.

I represented graduates to gave speech, I participated in a lot of competitions, I danced in many events. There were a lot of First time or good try during my primary.

But after my primary, I started to be quiet and shy. I am fat and nobody would ask me to perform anything on the stage. They don't even believe that I could dance or sing.

I feel useless. I feel passive.

But, after I am back to here, the teachers here gave me a lot of opportunities. 

They trust on me that I can teach a performance. They trust on me that I can sing. They trust on me and ask me to help them. 

And I dare to try. 

Because of their encouragement, I dare to try, to prove that I can complete whatever task they gave to me. 

I don't want to disappoint them.

 I don't want to let them feel like I am 小时了了，大未必佳。

That's why I work hard.

I promise to work hard and try my best afterwards.

CNY coming. 

A new year coming.

Goat year coming.

New year, Goat year, please be GOOD to me!

:)

Practicum 3.0 - 1st week is good.

Heyya,
so this gonna be my first post of February.
I found I rarely update my blog like I used to do last year.
I feel real sorry about it.
Life is too busy.
And whenever I'm free, I think of resting my mind.

Well, I had started my third practicum. The last one.
I have changed my prac-mate due to something this time.
A long story to tell. And I'm tired of repeating it.
Shi*t happened.
I'm thankful for the that sh*t because it gave me chances to see the true colours of lotsa my friends.
I'm thankful because somebody helped me out.
Without that somebody, I won't be able to work in my primary school now and staying at home during these 3 months.
Words can't describe how much I thank that somebody. TQ :)
So mind your mouth and stop trying to spoil our friendship if you've planned to do so.
Time proves everything.
I can't say how good I am if I am bad enough.
 And people will see how evil I'm if I am really one, even you never try to tell.
I strongly believe that time proves everything.
Like how it works on you.

Speaking of my practicum,,,
so far so good.
I'm thankful that the headmistress had changed the class for me.
I'm well prepared to take over the not-so-good class, but somehow she changed for me at last.
I was really over the moon when I get to know about this news, but after a second I was like...erm...stressful?
I scared I might disappoint the headmistress.
I scared I might spoil their result.
I scared I am not good enough and not so qualified to teach them.
Alright, I just gotta stop all my negative thinking and gonna work harder.
I believe I can be a good teacher!! :D
To be a good teacher of smart kids, you gotta be smarter than them.
Thus, I think of a lot of high-ordered thinking questions that I could work on my smart kidsss.
I would like to train them to think more wisely and creative and also dare to speak out their mind in front of all.
So far so good, I think.
They are really smart and good students.
I find them love to learn something they don't know. Something new. Something fresh.
They love to take challenges.
When you set a target for them, they would be more active and pay you more attention in class.
I will try my very best to teach them!
I might be tired or my mind might get exhausted, but all hard work paid off when you see their sparkling eyes that crave for more new knowledge.
Their smile melt all your tiredness.

I am in a familiar surrounding, my darling primary school this time.
When I hear the school song in the assembly, I am so excited!
I followed and I sang.
I'm glad that I'm back to her.
Teachers treat me very good, keep asking how am I going and even prepared breakfast for me.
I feel fully energized when they concern about me everytime.
Thank you teachers. Every of you is the reason I choose this profession now. No jokes!
:)

The first week had ended.
I am glad that I am quite close with my practicum mate so far.
I am not as stressed out as I think I would be working with him.
There is less awkward working to him because he is as talkative as me. XD
I hope we could overcome every ups and downs together in the coming 11 weeks.

Buddha bless me.
In everything.
:)

Birthday celebration post on my Lunar birthday. :)

Well, thanks to the terrible wifi connection in college, I couldn't get my blog up to date. :(

And finally after 2 weeks stuck in jail, I am back to home today!! *Cheers!!*

So speaking of my 22nd birthday celebration,,,

it ended up pretty simple.

As I am growing older and older, I am no longer that excited when thinking of my birthday.

The only reason I still like birthday is because it gives us an excuse to have another great meal with the love one. Another chance to gather.

Well, celebration is no longer that important for me.

I just hope everybody around me can have a blessed and peaceful year ahead.

What worth to make you excited if you start to feel you are getting older each year?

Getting old is definitely not a thing worth celebrating and cheer around huh?

Anyway, I am typing all these simple celebrations I had as a record of life.

2 or 3 days before my big day, my bff celebrated birthday for me.

To be exact, we actually just met up and had a simple meal at Bento Sanga.

I had my Kimchi Pork Bento at Rm9.90

It was really a big portion and tasted really good!! I will definitely order it during my next visit.

Needless to introduce, my bff.

I spent her on Somersby.

Yay, my first time having Somersby!

 Mine.

 Hers.
Chicken Bento. A bit too dry for me.

 Us.

 She bought me a piece of Raspberry Cheese cake but we were too full to have it after meal and sad to say it melted in the car. So I was like having...erm...Raspberry Cheese cream. XD

On my real big day,,,
I woke up early because I want my one year once birthday to be longer. LOL

I am a typical Chinese and mee-sua-neng is a MUST for my birthday.

Out of my surprise, Peh Yee sent this piece of cake to me at my gate in the afternoon.
I was really surprised and touched! This surprise ranked number 1 for my 22nd birthday no kidding! Thanks my friend!! =D

Youngest brother planned to treat me abalone nasi lemak but unfortunately the restaurant closed on that day. We went to a Thai restaurant afterwards.

Daddy bought me a Black Forest cake! =P

 22.

Before the clock pointed to twelve again, bff dated me.
I thought it was just a yumcha session but she bought me another piece of cake!! Omg she is so sweet.

My rainbow cake.

I was really full after swallowed this down to tummy. Fat die me to have so many cakes in a day.

 

I love to have cakes on birthday.
Not because of I love to eat cake, I don't really fancy about cakes, but I love to make wishes.
More cakes mean more wishes.

Friendship forever my dear bff in the world. How much I hope we could celebrate our birthday together every year. Come back from Uk during my birthday please.......hahaha joking 

Back to college and I got birthday celebration with my gang.
We decided to try a new cafe Rocks Garden Cafe.
I like the ambiance there. :)
And also the food there. Big portion and reasonable price. nom nom

 Never miss a Carbonara when given a chance to dine in western cuisine.

My gorgeous friend Yee Ching.

With our group's 智囊 Ivan.

The pretty long legs Ker Sing.

 Shin Phing and I.

The gentle lady Peh Yee.

*I like my hair colour under the light*

Cutest chubby hamburger Choo Choo.

Hippo + Giraffe

When I was going around the table, taking photo with everybody,,,

deng...deng...deng...deng...

surprise!

There were two cakes coming!

December babies making wishes.

Ena and I the December babies the maknae

Hazelnut cake and Tiramisu.

Both tasted like heaven!!!!!!

 I LOVE this photo the most!
We all looked so sweet.

My beloved ladies.

The Gang.
That marked the end of my 22nd birthday celebration.
I would like to thank to all of my friends who celebrate for me and wish me, advanced or belated don't care.
Thanks to my dear Yunying for sending birthday card for me from the far far away UUM!
Thanks pretty Ying Ying and my most beloved ex-roommate Hanyin for giving me masks!! Such coincidence. xD
Thanks my giraffe Yeexien for sewing one funny-looking hippo for me. I love it though it looked really weird. =P
Thanks my bff Fiona for giving me novel Eleanor and Park which is really a good read. I finished it within one week and love it so much!
Thanks to my family for nurturing me and backup me always.

I'm going to lead a wonderful 22!!
*or you may say I have already reach 23 but I won't admit it now too unfair too unfair.*
Going to play hard and work hard and live hard hard.


Happy Lunar Birthday today!!
:)

2015 resolutions. :)

I actually wanna type something to summarize my 2014.
I typed and deleted and typed and deleted.
I don't know what I should write.
Too many happenings but feel empty.
2014 was amazing as I had actually achieved most of my target and I participated a lot of activities and knew a lot of new people.
But it was sad coz I lost somebody I really really respected and love and I see there were so many accidents and disaster happened all around the world.
Life is too unpredictable.
I hope 2015 will be a good year, not only for me but for the whole world of people.
Please, 
I really hope and pray that 2015 will be a peaceful and blessed one.
:)

You might think that life is unpredictable so why should we still have planning and resolution huh?
For me, it is a must to have some target in life so that we wont feel empty.
Even if there might be no tomorrow for me, I gonna live my today a contented and fruitful one!!
So here I am to write my target to be achieved in 2015:

1. I had achieved my target in 2014 which was getting an A for practicum. I hope I could improve my teaching skill and get an A+ *guru cemerlang* in my last practicum. *I knew educating is more important that the result, but a target will always encourage me to do better. I will try my best to educate my students, not for my result, but for my students.*
2. Maintain my CGPA till the end of my course. *Thanks Buddha that I maintained it in 2014, so final year go Go GO*
3. Brush up my 草书 and meet my calligraphy teacher more often. *Ever since the weekend is changed to Fri and Sat I never pay a visit to calligraphy class in 2014, so my target in 2014 failed. :( I felt so sorry for my teacher and myself. I hope I could be more hardworking in my calligraphy career in 2015.*
4. 8-10 English novels. *I read 10 English novels and about 16 Chinese books in 2014 and that's pretty cool. I hope I could read as much in the new year.*
5. Less time in drama and social media *I always ask myself to stop watching so much dramas and stop instagramming but I just couldn't once I get stuck. I spent the most of my time in my insta compared to facebook. So, 2015 you gonna be more self disciplined!!*
6. Workout regularly *Failed target in 2014 as I always followed my friends to have great dinner. Gonna stop this and get my healthy meal back! I want Abs and little waist please* XD
7. Travel to new country. * No traveling in 2014 and I hope I could travel to a new country in 2015. I gonna use my own money 100% if travel with my aunt or plan a trip to oversea with friends.*
8. Write 400-500 春联 for donation function. *2014 record is 400 pieces* :D
9. Blog more to record life.
10. Braver, more independent, more sociable, more daring, expose myself more to others. *I think I did this well last year coz I practicum and met new people and joined quite a lot of activities and I did force myself to expose myself in front of others. I did see my improvement little by little so 2015 gonna be better!*

I hope I am able to I must and I will achieve all of these this year to be a better man!! =)

Not to forget, 

I gonna appreciate and love my family more, help them more and treat them better.

I gonna let all of my troubles go and only see the happy one.

I promise to appreciate my classmates more since this is going to be our final year.

Ya, and a more healthy lifestyle. Sleep earlier and remember to take vitaminsss everyday coz I start to feel old. :P

All in all

2015, please be kind to me. ^_^

Eleanor & Park

Come to the first post in 2015, I would like to share with you guys a good book.

ELEANOR & PARK by Rainbow Rowell

Worth reading: ★★★★★★★★★★ (9.5/10)

Reason: OH-MAI-GAWD, it is simply GOOD! The story. The vocabs. The characters. Just GOOD!

This is my first book in 2015.
And my second book by Rainbow Rowell.
It is an Amazing book!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thanks to bff Fiona for buying this for me as my 22nd birthday gift. =D
and Thanks to the government for extending our school holidays, hence I got extra time to read.
It feels really good to complete it before my new semester starts.

This book is really really good.!
It is a sweet love story between an Irish-Korean guy Park and a red hair girl Eleanor.
They come from totally different family.
Park's family is sweet. His parents kiss each other every time.
But Eleanor's family is terrible!
For me she is pity 'coz her parents divorced and each marriage a new person. She follows her mom but her stepfather is a very violent and chauvinistic man. Eleanor and her siblings have to eat and take bath before her stepfather comes back home. They just have to stay at home obediently 'coz the crazy man is crazy and get anger easily. And when he gets drunk, he will scold or abuse his wife. All in all, he is a very very bad man he is a monster! I hate him!

The story of Eleanor and Park get started when they sit next to each other on the school bus.
They never talk in the bus and one day Park lends her comic books and slowly they share the headphone, listening to the same song and discuss about it.
And yea, that is how love blossoms.
Park's mom doesn't like Eleanor at first. She heard some rumors about her family.
But after she realizes the situation that Eleanor stuck in, she accepts her.
The part of Park's mom helps Eleanor to set her hair and make up is just funny.

There are a lot of sweet and romantic parts in this book.
I especially like the part when Eleanor first calls Park.
That part is so cute!

But I hate it when the two of them get into quarrel due to some small things.
For example they quarrel when Eleanor knows that Park's ex is Tina (a girl who Eleanor dislikes). And also when Park fights with Steve to protect Eleanor but Eleanor doesn't need it and she thinks that he fights to save his own face and they argue over it.
I personally think that it is because Eleanor is an emotional girl. She thinks too much and not really confident about her relationship with Park.

Oops, there is another part which I like so much!
The adventurous journey at the last part of the story.
Park drives the truck to drive Eleanor away from her horrible stepfather.
I felt warm that Park's dad agree to let him drive Eleanor away from the town and promise to help. Park's dad is such a nice man!
Speaking of the adventurous incident, I can imagine the whole scene you know!
Back to home at midnight after seeing Park and finds that everything in her room is in a mess and immediately escapes from the house and tries to run away to avoid her horrible stepfather and......
The reason and the result? You gotta read the book yourself 'coz I'm not going to tell. XD
What I could say is I couldn't put down my book while reading this part 'coz it is so thrilling!
The words and sentences all turn into animation in my mind. So lively and vivid.
I feel like I am the one being chased by a monster! Whoo.

If I were asked to comment about this book for what I don't like, erm...
I think I will hope that the author describes more about Eleanor's family after Eleanor leaves.
I don't want the 'Everybody says they're gone. The whole family.' and 'He wasnt dead. But he wasn't getting up.' to be the answer.
I want to know more about them.

Besides, I don't understand why Eleanor refuses to write a letter or phone a call to Park.
'Just three words long.' is all written by Eleanor in the postcard for Park after one year, but hey that is not enough la! *roooaaaarrrr*
I want to see them being together!
I want to see Eleanor's dad turns over a new leaf and she manages to tell the whole family she is in love with Park. I want to see Eleanor be able to mix well with her friends.
Well, I just hope there would be a 'Eleanor & Park II' to tell me about them being together!!!
For the very first time I hope to read a sequel to a book. X-)
So I guess you guys know how much I love about this book huh!

My mind is kinda empty now after I finish reading this book.
This only happens after I finish watching a drama normally. But this feeling coming to me after a book!
This book is really impressive!
You guys should really borrow this book from me or pick it up at any bookstore and read it.

But be prepared with a not-so-good-and-sad ending. =P

PS:
Before I forget, I would like to tell that I am listening to Aaron Yan's song 《台北沉睡了》 while reading this book and I found the lyrics match Park's feeling so well.
“  妳或许来过 像一场烟火
燃烧过我的瞳孔 然后狠狠坠落
最美时刻台北沉睡了 浪漫没风声
能找谁证明存在过 

我真的爱过 如果妳问我
否则我不会一直感受失去什么
多想今夜台北沉睡了 故事有下落
把妳抱在我怀中 不准再错过 ”
Eleanor is like a spark of fireworks which come across his eyes and disappear.
She is gone then, no letter, no phone call, nothing. He has nothing to prove that she comes across his life before. And he really loves her and he would like to hear from her again, hug her again.
If I were Park, I think I will cry listening to this lol

I am really glad that I read this book before holiday ends coz it is so lovely so adorable. Aww :"(
By the way, I have joined 2015 reading challenge in Goodreads.
Okaylah, I know 8 is not a big challenge.
But I just don't want to set a big target that I couldn't accomplish and end up disappoint me.
So 8 would be an achievable number. Thus I hope I can complete this challenge by the end of this year. Please!

7 to go.
Jiayou!!
I think this post is long enough for today. So, Ciao.
:)